My final attempt at quitting P and M.

Hello, everyone! Let's kick it off with a little bit about myself:
I'm currently 18, never had sex or a serious relationship. I'm very shy, and awkward socially. I haven't always been, it's started since I became addicted to P and M.

As horrible as it sounds, I saw porn for the first time when I was 8 years old. Addiction came a bit later, at around 12-13. So technically this has been going on for 10 years.

I've only become aware of my problem in the last year or so. I feel like I've tried everything. Just relying fully on willpower, and stopping, which didn't work. I've tried meditation which actually helped me a little bit, but I eventually stopped and fell back in.

I'm really hoping that NoFap can keep me from going back. I hope to start meditating again and engaging with the NoFap community to hopefully put an end to my addiction.

P addiction has gotten really bad for me. At some point, I didn't feel excited with the usual porn, so at times I would watch weird fetishes and shit I'm not even into. As soon as I was done, I'd feel disgusted at what I just watched.

I desperately need to stop. At this point, it is hurting both my person and my school work. My focus levels have hit rock bottom. Even the simplest tasks seem like huge deals to me, and I cannot get started.

I aim to have everybody's back in here. If you feel down, you can always talk to me. And I hope you guys will have my back too. So from today ill start my NoFap journey, and hopefully restore my confidence and joy in life. Cheers everyone!

EDIT:
Just wanted to add this little story:
Normally whenever I'm traveling with family, I would try to stop and enjoy the holiday. But I would always find myself locking myself in the bathroom to fap.
BUT: In my college class we had a trip to Malta, and for that entire week I didn't really get much private time, meaning for those 6 days I stopped fapping. The last days on Malta when i had stopped for a few days, felt amazing. And I actually interacted well with a few of the girls that I would never have talked to otherwise (cause im too shy and awkward). It really felt amazing. And that was just 5 days!! Cant wait to see how it feels further down the road. Stay strong everybody!

 

Same feeling I have. Feels as if it's taking over my life.
I aim not to slip at all. The first time I started meditating daily I was able to go about 3-4 weeks right off the bat, without P (I did fap but only using imagination). So hopefully with a combination of meditation and NoFap, I can stop completely with both M and P.

If you haven't already, try checking out meditation. It may sound all hippie like and weird, but it's actually really nice. Just 10 minutes each day relieves your mind so much.
There's a YouTuber called "Actualized org"(with . between) you can check out. He makes some really informative videos, also several ones about beating addiction.
Stay strong fella