Time to try this... (Newcomer leaving porn)

Hi to everyone...

I have just 2 days without watching porn and masturbation, so... this is not my first attempt to leaving this. I want to use this as a memmo to remmember every week o maybe every 3 days to say myself this is I did or this I can resist... Of course I have support from Jesus Christ but that's a private support to me.

It's so hard to resist when a week or a month have passed... I've resisted 3 months in the past but is hard and more and more hard because the erections are uncontrollable and it's not easy when you remember all type of porn scenes. To begin let's take this challenge.

If my english isn't good enought my apologies I'm from Mexico and try to obtain some help... if you read me that is a lot of help...

Thank you.

 

Thanks for your words.

Well today I've been calm... but I'm writting here because I'm starting to feel te need to enter to watch porn and masturbate... not yet but I feel I need it... so I'm reporting obstacles. I don't have a real goal, like I said in the past I have resisted just 3 months and I wanted 6 months but my problem or my real problem is that if I return the next time is more dificult to leave... I'm embarrased with myself every time I fall again.

Thank you to anybody for reading this message, it makes me feel I'm not alone.

 

Let's see if my signature is active with the counter... ok first goal a month.

 

5th day... I just can't ignore the number of days because if I can resist just one it means victory for that day. At the momen I didn't go in a hurry... In the past I needed to PMO in order to dream relaxed, now that's not an option.

Note: There are a little triggers in my mind of porn scenes, but no erections it looks like my penis (is it dead?) is offline of my brain...

Is this an achieve? I wonder how much longer Can resist?

Ok time to pray, it is important.

 

Thanks I really need that, and that's the trouble I get every time I try. This time to begin the 30 days is a first step to obtain confidence. What can I do this time? good question, now I'm trying to run away every stimulating image, sound, video that can excites me sexually... I will follow your advice about put my efforts in my dreams... there is a thesis I need to finish this year, I have friends, female friends that I love not in sexuall way and go to the cinema, walk somewhere... and I feel ready to go to the gym and spent my energy there...

Even with that I feel If I break my resistance I can fall... so whatever it happens I'll write it here and wait for gold advices like the one you let here...

And the last time... I felt alone, now I feel I gota lot of mates here.

Thanks a lot.

 

Got a dangerous trigger today... There's a girl I like that sent me a hug and caused me an erection. I know it's because I'm under porn efects. Need more time, it's hilarious how the words of a person you like can do you that thing instead of sexy images, porn etc...

I survived once again...

 

6th day...

Got triggers from words like hug? Now I understand how I've been afected by PMO. I'm fine and calm. I felt something in my penis, I think was anxiety. No porn multimedia in my brain interacted just the meaning of being hugged by her... ok time to reset the achieve today, tomorrow next battle.

 

7th day... I went to the cinema with a female friend, nothing about sexual atraction between us but we talk a lot. I got home very tired and I fell asleep. Got erections when I'm on bed but I ignore that...

 

Ok, I'm going to do a list about my objectives and why to clarify what I want to achieve. Need a little of time to order ideas, then express them here and in my mind. I just can say I don't feel alone when some people knows about me here and that's make me feel supported.