HARD TO TALK TO HER AND ASK HER OUT.

I know, it was the same for my first rejection and I guess second, thats why I am trying to make this fast. Thw reason I'm down during is exactly the fact that I'm wasting time on something could possibly not ever happening. And it kills. Anyways I guess I will talk to the friend for the number.

 

I know I'm not supposed to say anything till I do it, but a whole week has come. Just here to day this about tomorrow. If she isn't there I will try to get her number from another friend who might have it, If not I will have to wait till the next week.apart from this short update I'm not saying anything else. No questions even though I have some. But we will see Thanks for backing me up anyways

 

I will do it that is definite. However ahes on vacation so I have to wait till next week since its two weeks.I would have told her through text too but everyone I've asked do not have it. So I have to wait. I know by that week she could have even gotten a bf. And so I do feel terrible for not saying it before she left and so this week and possibly the next week have and will hurt me. But all I can do right now is wait till she come back. But I'm not wasting that opportunity again. The next time I see her I'm doing it.

 

My reload of this page starts at where I say I will defiantly do it on sunday. And I just continue hating my life even more. Today as expected she was here. There were literally three chances in and before service and then after but I again failed to do it. I swear her face was like come talk to me. She was with her younger sister which I guess added to the nervousness. But I am so done with myself I keep on thinking about it and it hurts. Anyways I guess I have to wait again for another whole week. I don't know how I'm gonna even go through this week with at least some desire to live the life. I guess I will just go through th motions. But ive made a fail safe plan which is to put my number on a piece of paper saying to talk either after church or sometime else when available or text or call me when she wants. Maybe that will do something or I will actually talk to her with no need for that paper. I'm sorry guys and I'm disappointed at my self.

 

Wow. I juat watched it sorry for not responding but thank you for that. I will be watching it probably the whole of this week. Fun fact the girl actually look like mine too. Which at the beginning I was like wow. The man is literally me. Well thank you.

 

So I didnt do it again. I missed chances that could have easily been taken advantage of. And so as soon as I came home. I did the plan B. And so as I thought the friend had the number and again as I expected without no complications I now have her number. The thing is now what do I do now. Text her or don't and wait another week? Text her just saying you have something to tell her the next time you meet , etc. Anything is appreciated thanks