My name should stay anonymous and I want to quit PMO.

Hey everyone,

I've been struggling with depressions and ED for around half a year now and infact watching porn and fapping to it is the biggest factor causing it. There are also some sidefactors like staying up all night and sleeping over the day but that rather less.

I've been a daily fapper fapping 2 to 3 times a day and this is destroying me. In the past I relapsed many times after 2 weeks, 1 week or several days, masturbating in parks, at friends home or even in school. Also, I am experiencing ED and through my massive consume of pornography I lost interest in certain genres and drifted into for me damn weird genres. There are barely porn movies that get me stimulated anymore these days if it's not one of this genre and this can't be it.

I am done with this shit and just want to get happy again, come back to motivation for doing anything, be my old me and beat my social anxiety. I started meditating, got back the relationship to my back then lost girlfriend and started playing the piano. This is my time to shine and I really want to beat this addiction.

Porn is the devil and hereby I gonna declare war to the devil even if it's not porn that's evil, it's rather my weak mind and self discipline but what ever.

I gonna go hard mode for 90 days.

 

Thank you for welcome me!

I will fully quit using my computer, deleting all material that could be a stimulus and trigger me to relapse from everywhere and alot of distraction. Like I said, I started meditating and playing the piano so I will try to focus on that. Besides that, I am still attending school and this also should take some time off my free time.