Post published by Nwmat1138

Ok I really feel like I need some help. I was on day 8 and feeling good and I don't even know what caused it but I ended up watching bbc sp whilst driving (which for me is like the most powerful) and I o'd again just from watching and nothing else. Then I think i've done it around 5 times every time without touching anything. Since I started this in oct i've managed to stay clear of all sp and have only lapsed with pics or ts porn usually. But after this I feel truly awful how far i've fallen. I literally don't have any power to stop that urge it seems. Even doing it in such dangerous conditions like driving doesn't deter me. I've genuinely thought about rehab but don't know how to go about it tbh. The other confusing thing is that it still makes me question what I really like...girls/guys/trans I really have no idea. I don't know if the sp has done this or whether it was already there???
Thank you for listening