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Hello everyone. Very traumatized newcomer here. After being introduced to porn as a child by a rather disgusting relative, as well as being subjected to physical, mental, and sexual abuse, I hid my porn addiction from the world for almost 30 years, allowing the devil to own that part of me while I outwardly lead an otherwise normal and successful life. Recently my porn addiction came to light, and my world is turned upside down. I'm trying to quit porn and masturbation while dealing with the most stressful life experiences I have ever experienced by far...Far worse than I ever thought I would be dealing with. I'm on day 2. Right now, aside from the extreme difficulty in preventing myself from slipping back to that old familiar stress reliever, I'm devastated at the thought that people will take the entirely of my life at a glance and say "Well, sure he did some good things and we thought he was a nice guy, but I guess he's actually just a disgusting sex/porn addict." I don't feel like the world really understands that one can be both, and that one can be addicted to porn without ever intending to act out the things they've seen. I would die before ever touching anyone other than my wife... But I'm the only one who knows for certain that what I just said is true.
My love and devotion to my family has kept me from seriously considering suicide, but the thoughts still creep in from time to time. I never thought I would say that or be in this situation.
I'd love to join a physical sex addict group and go to meetings, but it looks like that's just not in the cards for me right now.
So I'm here. I'm hoping that I can at least get this part of my life under control to keep the stress from overtaking me. If you can pray for me, please do; I've never needed it more. If you can make some time to send a few encouraging words my way, please do. If you can be an accountability partner for me and help me to finally reach outside of myself to start to solve this problem, that would be a real blessing to me. Thanks for taking the time to read this, and may a God bless you all abundently.
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Walk_it_out
Hey brother welcome here.. I know the circumstances could be better but we are glad to have you..I know you are in a lot of pain, shame, guilt etc and I just want to let you know that as bad as it is, it can get better..We all have those rock bottom low points but let it be the fuel to cause you to rise out of the pit of porn and masturbation. We are in this boat together and you are in a great place here with us..be active and give your whole heart as I can see you are ready to do. Many good men here this truly is a blessed place..praying for you my brother
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1 Tes. 4:3
Hi brother. As painful as this is, it seems you touched ground and have started to walk in the right direction. You can PM me if you need a partner. I prayed and will keep praying for you.
You are not alone, we are a community here. And Jesus is with you always.
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Dmodee
My heart really goes out to you. I still don’t want to be here, not suicidal, just hopeful. But there are things that need done, and it is His good will that they be done through people.
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Tao Jones
The awakening, when it comes, is often a rude one. The truth will always come to light. It can feel brutal and traumatic when it happens. Nonetheless, this is the best thing that could have occurred. Your feet have been forcibly set at the start of the path. What you will choose to do in response is up to you. We are here to support you in any way we can. The first few steps will be excruciating. Your life will never be the same. But the Way does get easier, the journey becomes a joy, and you will find that the best days are ahead of you. Welcome to the journey towards freedom. If I can be of service, feel free to message me directly.
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Myfortress
Having this come into the light is the thing that needed to happen so that you can repent and go get the life God has for you. I'm sorry that it unfolded in such a traumatic way for you. In the long run it is better than keeping it a secret where the enemy stays in control and keeps you imprisoned. I'm praying for you.
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Grandpa61
I’m praying for you my brother. I found the following post a real game changer for me. https://yourbrainrebalanced.com/for...ughts-on-rebooting-extremely-long-post.15558/
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