Post published by Nwmat1138

Hi guys. I just wanted to give you a quick update. For those that don't know i've been trying to quit sp and everything that goes with it since Oct and I could never get past day 7. I'm now on day 30 and I did something a lil different that the normal pmo. So my day 30 for me represents no orgasm by myself at all which after over 20 years for me is incredible. In the first week or two I also looked at porn occasionally but only girls alone to try and help the process of coming off all the dreadful sp stuff. And now I don't look at porn at all. Within these 30 days I have also had sex quite a few times and honestly it was been amazing and everything is working as it should...it's not perfect yet don't get me wrong but things are going in the right direction and I think that is what's important to us all here. I just wanna say that I'm not fixed by any means certain triggers are still there and will be for a while but after so many years of all the hypno it did look like there was no way back. I had truly gone to some extremes with this and would dress and use sp for hours and hours a day everyday of my life and so to get to a place where I don't even think about it is amazing for me. I do think testosterone levels can play a part in this too. It's no secret that watching any porn makes us submissive by it's nature let alone the sp stuff! I hit the gym harder than I have for a long time. Big weights...big moves only. I ate better. I drank less. I read more. I spoke to people and strangers more. I went to Japan on my own for 10 days. I broke the cycle and if you can break the habit you can break the addiction. We can all do this...we just have to want to! I'd also like to say a big thank you to everyone here and anyone that's helped me. It's still very early days in my recovery but I have hope now and that's what I'm using to look forward.