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Post published by zamazm33
So been off from porn for some time now, which really got me free from sissy thoughts completely. But I was surprised to see how it popped back in my head last night.
And the trigger was extreme depression and anxiety. Felt so defeated by life yesterday, and so the sissy feelings just crept up like some kind of demon. It felt so real, I can't even explain it.
I felt like I needed to submit and just be dominated so I can just give up. I don't have to be strong, I don't have to keep fighting, and most importantly I don't have to be good enough. I could just be a submissive bottom and life would be easy, full of continuous pleasure and gratification. It took over my body, I felt excited. I swear I had a smirk on my face as my body language started to shift with that feeling.
I really don't how to fight this other than just ignoring and suppressing it.
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Roady
I've got some help from Heaven. Praying is the most powerful protection for me personally against this demons.
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ChicagoGenXGuy
I could have written this word for word. All I can say is this is day 110 for me. I've been triggered by the same general malaise, defeat, and despair that life has thrown at me. I've amplified all that with fear, procrastination, and bad decision making. Then come the triggers and sP-subs. Luckily just lame subs and not the real thing. Just get distracted. Find and chase positive, productive things. For me it's finding a job, being a better dad, boyfriend, brother, son, friend, etc. Sharing my gifts, time, and energy with the world.
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ChicagoGenXGuy
These aren't all good things when positioned next to a life of slavery to sP. They're inherently good things that stand on their own as worthwhile pursuits. They don't have to be compared with or viewed as an alternative to sP. You can realize their objective value and pursue them. You have a choice. While you're pursuing them and filling your head and time up with them, incidentally you're not consumed with sP and its awful consequences.
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