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We have all had very similar circumstances to you. It's good that you felt this disgust and came here. Here's the long and short of it; the most important thing is to throw out all items related to this fetish. If you have toys, botch em. If you have substitute toys, botch em. Lube, botch it. Female clothing you bought for yourself, botch it. The only thing left after that is to come up with a strategy for urges, where, when, and under what circumstances do you get them. Then do the 90 days.

Your decision is your decision. As Man said, if you decide to take the recovery path it has to start with permanently discarding all clothing, accessories, etc. Then the hardest part, total abstinence from masturbation. You have to get to a place where you have perspective on yourself and your situation, and can get the proper help for next steps. It took me 4 months of PM withdrawal for a glimmer of perspective. Now I'm in therapy pursuing recovery. I was in the same boat. If I can do this you can too. Do it and don't look back.

Also, please be aware that your descriptive narrative contains triggers that could hurt others on this board who are in various stages of withdrawal and recovery. Please respect their weakness and dial back the sexual acting out detail in your narratives. I'm sure we all appreciate it. Not taking anything away from your honest and courage in posting and asking for help. Good luck.