Post published by Rowdypowerstar

My life is falling apart, out of my control.
My life is so fucked up now, I am in one of the lowest stages of my life. I have tried this website more than 5 times, but never able to stop masturbation and porn. My longest streak recently is 1 day, exactly 24 hours. I am a student who has 4 assignments due this week, which I didn't even start yet. Whenever I tried open on the internet for my research assignment, I ended up watching porn, I was not even able to start 1 word in my assignment from last week onwards. some days twice, I feel like I don't have the energy right, but still masturbate. Being a lonely student I need to cook myself, I don't even eat 3 meals a day due to laziness and porn addiction and college lectures. I want to start doing my assignment now, but so scared to start, because the minute I start my brain thinks about life, what's happening to me, scared about life, why am I behaving like this, I am disappointing parents. By thinking and worrying like this, I end up watching porn and wasting all day again, without proper food intake. I can do my assignment easily, the only problem is how to start without ending up like this. I need to do research, so I need the internet. Tried library but it is full all the time and no proper study spaces left. I have just masturbated 1 hour back when I opened my assignment and I skipped dinner too. I don't go to porn if I watch youtube or other websites generally, but when I open my assignment I am ending up there. My parents are paying a lot of fees and I need to end his and focus on my studies. I am here typing this with some slight dizziness and feeling worthless. Help me, I want to stop this, NoFap is not working for me, I start by motivation, but lose that motivation with 12 hours. I need support, but no one is there for me here. Being an introvert, this is one of the worst stages of my life in recent days. Moreover, I'm 20.