Post published by thatsingleindividual#K-13

I've been binging for the past few days. I have fallen deep and I don't have the will to get myself out of it. Fact is, or so I believe, is that porn is giving me something that I've been missing, and that is saying something about my life. It really does. Despite knowing that it is basically killing me, spiritually and intellectually, there is that good feeling that comes that takes me away from everything. I live a monotonous life somewhat; it consists of going to school and going to work. That's it. I do not have many friends and I do not socialize. I do not have time to do extracurricular events and so forth. It shows that I definitely am in some form of despair, where I am submitting myself to the grip of porn, to surrender to its power, and I feel like I don't want to do anything to get out of it. I feel nothing right now. No deep sorrow, no regret, but wish I did. I want to be disgusted with it but am not. I want to repent, deep inside, very badly, but the feel-good vibe of it all is overpowering me at this moment, I think. I really don't know what to do.