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Post published by pman22

Hi guys,

It’s been a while. Haven’t been on here in a long time. For a while, I was fine dealing with my addiction. I’m back to the online video chat sex addiction, and it’s ruining my life.

For a few weeks now it’s been worse than ever. I’m actually tired of repenting because of how many times I’ve had to go back, and I forgiveness from God is difficult for me to imagine. Not only that, but I’m imaging the consequences of actually video chatting with people naked. If I ever get into the public eye, it could potentially ruin my life.

Today was the worst day. I spent my last few dollars I had to spend on my video chat sex addiction. I couldn’t believe that I actually did that.

I’m not sure where to go from here or what to do. I tried switching my routine to going to the gym after work and that helped, but I can’t do that every single day (like today)

Sorry to bother everyone. I’ve just given up all hope and my last resort is to come to you all in hopes of getting some advice that can help me overcome this again.

Thanks
pman22 more_vert
pman22
@YesICant i think you may have gotten cut off! Lol
Mystery Man more_vert
Mystery Man
Hey Brother. I just wanted to say thank you for being able to be so open and honest. We love you man and want you to know that your not alone and majority of us can relate. I am happy to work with you on an AP level too. Am also in a similar position of trying to regain a grin of this in my life
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YesICant more_vert
YesICant
Sorry, writing with my phone. I don't have a lot of experience and I imagine that it's difficult to get out from chat. Can I ask? What's the cause that brings you to use sex chat? It's because you're alone?
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Mystery Man more_vert
Mystery Man
Grip*. Pick up your cross brother and keep going. Keep checking in daily and ask the Holy Spirit for wisdom in other strategies to avoid Satan's traps on your life. Also try and determine the underlying stuff in your life that's making you relapse and give it to Jesus to repair. Mine for example is stress, intimacy, habit and condemnation that makes me fall
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pman22 more_vert
pman22
@YesICant yeah. I live alone and am not dating or married. When I was sort of dating this one girl (we didn’t do anything except hold hands, she’s also Christian) I didn’t even feel the need to do it.
YesICant more_vert
YesICant
I see - same here. Loneliness can bring to have such desires. Try to work on the things that bring you to use sex chat. Try to cancel any password or email address you're using to access there (hoping that you forget them). I don't know if it can help. Other than this, obviously, I guess find new friends, get in touch with church people and avoid loneliness would help. For sure, try to use any lonely time to pray, study Bible, worship and praise..
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pman22 more_vert
pman22
@YesICant amen bro! I know I can overcome it because I have before, thanks for the advice. Going to try to fill my life with more bible study and prayer
strakatastic more_vert
strakatastic
Thanks for your honesty. Definitely try to connect with people in your church. You might want to consider counseling: technically speaking online video feed porn isn't an issue in the secular psychology world unless it adversely affects your work, social, and personal life. Since you're financially sunk there could be something more than just an addiction at play here (in addition to sin). For me, Christian counseling helped reduce the compulsive aspect of porn usage. You might want to give that a shot.
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YesICant more_vert
YesICant
@pman22 I'm more than sure that you will make it! Jesus already won it all for you! In case you need something to listen as Bible studies, let me share with you these teachings: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCW8RJF5F1gJC5GSlW7cvT0w - I hope they will bless your life. God bless you!
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pman22 more_vert
pman22
@strakatastic hi! I’m actually connected at people in my church but I should definitely reach out more so thanks! Regarding financially I’m really not sunk in I would say (I spent $20) but I’ve been very tight on money lately cause of some personal stuff that came up recently. Luckily I should be getting paid tomorrow by his grace.
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St3v0 more_vert
St3v0
Hi @pman22. I can give you some advice that helped me a lot. One thing you have to remember is that trying the same thing over and over, expecting different results is the pinnacle of insanity.
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