Post published by Chargers85

Hi everyone. Just started on this journey (again...sort of). I've had a problem with MO since I was 8 or 9, had some periods of porn use, but not watched any in years. I do look at SFW images of girls though - a habit I'm trying to kick. Step 1: keep the phone in my jacket on the back of the door, rather than by the bed. Such a simple thing, but it really does make a difference.

However, I do have a good imagination and memory, and so even without porn, there's still plenty of temptation to wrestle with, especially first thing in the morning. What am I supposed to think about? Thinking about sex has been a habit of c.30 years, and I have no idea what to do about it.

I thought I'd start posting here (still not sure how this site works for 'journaling') to see how putting these struggles 'down on paper' affects me.

Today I had an emotional day - throwing away a bunch of stuff from secondary/high school - old photos of me with friends, an old birthday card from a girl I had a crush on. It was surprisingly difficult - I was a lot thinner then, and much better looking than I was aware of at the time. I thought, 'That guy should have been way more confident than he was!'. It's hard thinking that my life hasn't turned out the way I thought it would. It's not bad, by any means, but still.

Anyway, will try to post regularly, and see. My goal is to go 7 days without O - not done that in years I think.