Post published by Meli

Hi all. I'm new here. Mid thirties female. I'm really struggling with this. I've been doing this since I can remember... Very early on and never questioned it. Then in high school and college it got out of control and I was up to like 10 times a day to destress. Still didn't even think about it. Fast forward...I had 2 very strange things happen to be in the span of 3 years. All while I found out I have anxiety, panic, depression, ADHD. Finally understand myself a little working on that stuff. Anyway, I had a total sexual crash about 2 years ago... Slowly recovering maybe at 10 percent. Went completely numb down there. O was not even pleasurable. I'm still very numb... something changed over night. I'm scared. I've had medical tests there's nothing physically wrong they can find. I'm starting to think that the pmo during my entire life has had something to do with this. The P part actually happened much later on in life but I was definitely m and o I mean as far back as I can remember and edging too since forever. Wtf is wrong with me also another really weird thing is that even though I have very little feeling anymore and barely any sensation I'm still fapping all the time. I can't stop. It's like a compulsory behavior. There is much more to my story but I feel super awkward and vulnerable right now even telling anybody about this but I'm at my Wit's End I really need help I feel like nofap is going to help me regain some of my sensitivity and have some control over my behavior. I can almost feel the dopamine hit when I do it and I'm definitely addicted I am an addict and in my mid-thirties I'm just now realizing this and I've been this way a very very very long time. Thank you.