Post published by Leone

I binged twice since i wrote the last post! I did more than two week then something really bad happened that made me fall into the same sin again. A girl in my country that i hoped i was gonna get engaged, cheated on me. She was going out with another guy getting to know him while she was giving me promises. I have known her for five years and i thought she had become a good christian, but i feel so gullible, I trust people too much. lately it cost me $900 because i trusted someone to fix something and he stole from me . I don't understand how can i keep being so stupid and fall for people that don't care about me. This girl that i had paid her rent for about 5 years and was helping her (like a friend for more than 4 years) cheated on my trust. She lied to me after i sacrificed for her and her family for so many years, even though i did it for God, she should at least be honest with me and told me the truth. I am thinking now maybe she wanted to use me so that i could help her and kept lying. I know God will deal with her and she will face the consequences of her deeds. Nothing goes unpunished, bible makes that clear, but she is stupid enough not to understand that. She is so evil that after so many years that i sacrificed for her family helping them with money and everything she did this to me. I am so frigging hurt that I was crying like a kid. I don't lie and i don't cheat, so I thought other people are like me. Why God why, when God when am i going to find someone I can trust and someone who is right for me