Post published by tdaniel89

Welcome. You clicked because lust is still alive in your heart. You are keeping the coals of that fire banked for some reason. The hard work of recovery is learning why. What do you believe you must provide for yourself through lust that God cannot or will not provide for you? What compels you to risk love and happiness for this cheap plastic thrill?

Recovery is possible if you become willing to do whatever it takes to break free, no matter the cost. The Information menu above has some great resources to get you started. Find an AP or three on this site and start checking in every day. If you commit 100% to the process, you will experience 100% success in your recovery.

Onward!

Read my last journal entry on Oct 8. https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/continuous-journal.337104/page-2 I urge you not to get married until you've rewritten your neuropathways. Do lots of research and help your fiancé to understand that it's not her fault. Also realize that God is likely not to give you a miracle healing. He wants humanity to learn in the face of modern technology, especially Christians so that we can be models for our kids.

I really don’t know what compels me. It’s like I get this urge and I just go for it. My self control is weak

Sorry man. I know that feeling - feeling completely out of control. I dont have a ton of time free from this addiction, but it is an absolutely insane amount of time for me. I think in some ways that broken feeling is what motivated me to even get as far as I have. I'm praying for you brother.

Everyone's self control is weak. Truly, humans are incapable of resisting sin without Christ's help. That doesn't mean we don't have a role to play because we always have the free will we were endowed with by The Father. So, we must continually choose freedom over sin but without Christ fighting the devil for us, we will fall again and again. God asks that we pray to Him often with our request for help, probably because this is also a conscious use for good thanks to our free will. To find true freedom begin by considering your prayer life and devotion to God.

Everyone's self control is weak; humans are incapable of resisting sin without Christ's help. We do have a role to play, because we always have the free will we were endowed with by The Father. So, we must continually choose freedom over sin but without Christ fighting the devil for us, we will fall again and again. God asks that we pray to Him often with our supplications, probably because this is a positive exercise of our free will. You are a good man. I can see that you have all of the ingredients, so to find true freedom begin by considering the consistency and fervor of your prayer life and devotion to God.

First 24hrs are in the books. I’m feeling better and motivated. Had a long talk with my fiancé, it’s going to take time but I think we will be okay. We discussed my next steps and what I’m going to do. Completely taking safari off my phone, deactivated my IG, and I have my first session with a porn addiction coach this evening. Very thankful for Gods grace.