Post published by Ekahs

Hey guys.. I've never really introduced myself to the group. I'm kind of new but like 3 weeks. I wont lie to you guys I DIED... I was really trying not too because even though its whatever online, Im continuously dying on the inside. I realize that Im just some stranger you probably care nothing about, the following message I was actually going to post to AP thread but I thought to myself that maybe it'd be best to post in this group. I hate to seem needy. I do not seek pity.. excuse the analogy but I am like a crack addict who is loved and is ashamed whenever he gets high. I just want to be clean. Its been a really hard few months..

The furthest I've gotten so far. I'm looking to get up and really try again but I keep falling.. Im ashamed deeply and feel its time to find others. My goal is to stop with porn and masturbation completely. I was a heavy addict for the ages of 12 to 18 and at 19 was able to break the curse but around October I fell and was unable to recover.. please.. help.. Im dying..
I am religious and have many things I would rather be doing in my life. Most of all I feel I have become Gods biggest regret and disappointment. I repent of course but I shouldn't be doing this.. even at that I've done it so many times I find it difficult to believe he will forgive me. I am stuck. I need help. I came on here to get assistance and I get that Its a two way street but please.. Come to my street cause I don't think I cant limp my sorry no good, suicidal, piece of trash self down two steps without collapsing. or should I say relapsing.. I do not own a Gun but if I did Im sure I would be brave enough to pull it. I say this only cause this has been a reoccurring thought during the time of these falls. The outlook on it is this. I know to some it may seem extreme but to me It only makes sense. If my life truly does have purpose but all I do is fall all the time then I'd probably be best If I were just gone and someone else could make the purpose I was suppose to do accomplished. If his grace is washing over me every time I mess up and because of that I ruin someone else's day, not only do I feel terrible but I think that someone else could be doing my Job 10x better with less a struggle with full trust in him. When I fell in October I fell hard. If theres a christian (preferably) out there that can help me who isn't afraid of me I would really appreciate you or anybody assisting me getting back to the point of being fully out of sin..
1arqui more_vert
1arqui
Hello, I am not the best to tell u this because I am catholic and also because I just relapsed a few hours ago:
1arqui more_vert
1arqui
First of all, no one in here Is going to judge u. There Is people who has behaved worst than u. Believe me, I also was a crapy perdón. So u postes in the right place.
1arqui more_vert
1arqui
Forgive me for what I am going to say but please: don't be stupid! Don't ever put your life over such a small mistake. It Is true that PMO is bad, but it Is an insignificant thing compared to suicide.
1arqui more_vert
1arqui
We are all here sinners, and are fighting against the same things, so don't undermine yourself that bad. We do care of your sorry man. You are also our brother. Keep going and God bless u.
todaysresolution more_vert
todaysresolution
Every Christian sins and probably every male struggles with lust. Paul sinned even when he was saved. but God has taken away our sins by scrubbing us clean with His Son Jesus' righteous Blood.
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todaysresolution
You are forgiven and sealed with the Holy Spirit the guarantee of your inheritance just by believing the Gospel
todaysresolution more_vert
todaysresolution
God sacrificed Jesus as a blood sacrifice. ALL of your sins were put on Him and His clean blood on you, pleasing God. and Jesus rose
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todaysresolution
God loves us even though we sin. He promises to forgive all of our sins through Jesus. He cares about you deeply and remembers your sins no more! you are not a failure to God.
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todaysresolution
He is the One who keeps you. You are not under the Law anymore and not obligated to keep it. Its good to keep it! But you are forgiven no matter what
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todaysresolution
God wants to help you with your addiction. Sometimes even when we ask His timing is different than what we expect
Ekahs more_vert
Ekahs
I see why you guys posted short now -.- but -
Ekahs more_vert
Ekahs
I read anything spoken against the holy ghost is sin and will not be pardoned
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Ekahs
Therefore if I were to hold onto this sin I believe I'd be going to hell so I feel in danger even if I say sorry. because I came back to it..