Post published by LimitBreak9
Times has passed and i'm here again, 3 years since my first post i am happily married and have a 7 month old child. when i got married, i was so happy that i would use my marriage as a booster to finally get rid of porn and it worked for a few months, until stress gets in my life, and suddenly im back to my old habits.
"Ill stop watching porn when i get married"
You know when people say they will stop watching porn when they get married? that's bullcrap. all those habits built up over the years cannot be removed overnight. I am very afraid that my addiction will ruin my marriage, but these chemicals on my brain is stronger than that fear that i still watch porn despite the negative consequences. that's how addicted i am.
Don't marry if you will just hurt your spouse.
I am very afraid of my spouse to get hurt. yet every time i tell her i relapsed her heart splits in two.