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12-Step Rebooters

12-Step Rebooters

MasterRoshi Public Jun 15, 2018

I’ve been sober long enough now to take a STD test. So I went today to do it. It will take 2-3 days for results to come in. I’m soooooo freaking scared.... I hate waiting. I’m afraid I’ll be positive....

I had 4 unprotected sexual experiences with gay men, 3 of them I gave them oral sex with no condom with receiving anal sex with condom. And the final one, I got oral sex from someone.

I don’t think oral sex has as high of a risk as other types of sex, but still really scared..

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Dr_prof

I would try not to worry ( easier said than done) the chance of seroconversion with a single unprotected episode is 0.5% or 1 in 200. so you have a 2% chance of infection if all of them were infected with hiv. seems unlikely. Good luck.

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TheMightyQuinn

HI XXPharaohXx, ask your HP to help you walk through the fear. I will do the same for this morning.

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TheMightyQuinn

And thank you for sharing your fear with the group. A fear shared is a fear lessened. Step 5. Peace to you.

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Trappist

Good you have taken the tests on this walk back to sobriety.

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Trappist

Have taken test, too. Hate waiting in the ‘hallway’ while results come in. Praying with you.

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harry287

Really thanx to share. Your this experience will give the reality of disease of sex addiction disease mean if I follow and act on on it one day really it will kill me

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StopTheMusic

Hey @xXPharaohXx ,

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MasterRoshi

Thanks all for the support.

MasterRoshi

Results are in and all is negative. Phew!

TheMightyQuinn

Very happy for you! Stay vigilant and sober. Can't tell you how many times I dodged a bullet just to throw myself right back into the line of fire!

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MasterRoshi

Thanks Quinn. I sobbed for along time after I got the negative results, because I am so scared of returning to the sickness. I must stay sober! I must or it will kill me or someone else...

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Trappist

Yay!

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TheMightyQuinn

Thanks Pharaoh, I always need the reminder. I almost died. I would probably be dead by now if I had not decided to change 8 years ago. Constant reminding. Addiction is a disease of forgetting says my sponsor.

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harry287

Really feel good to hear that your result are negative

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harry287

Your fear and anxiety was sign of God showing you should stop that addiction as soon as otherwise it will kill you slowly

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MasterRoshi

Thanks!

2dayz_iz_2long

Hey Pharaoh thats awesome buddy. Im in AA two years sober off drugs and alcohol through the 12 steps and the big book. First day recovery from porn addiction at NoFap! nice to meet ya!

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harry287

I think a person come from any anonymous 12 step program he can easily understand and put practice in here atleast we need eachother to identity our disease and recovery thats y we say not I can but we can do it

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