Post published by SamsonDavid
Today I'm starting anew at day zero. I gave in to temptation to search for porn (by trying to circumvent the filters on my computer and smartphone), and to masturbate a few times these past few days.
Mainly I was searching for some excitement in the midst of great fatigue (but of course the porn only made it worse).
Also I have a complicated issue going on with a 'friend'. Something sexual happened between us a year ago. I felt so guilty afterwards that I told him I never want to do it again. We've kept in touch although I'm not happy about our friendship. The situation needs closure and that's what I'm about to have in a couple of weeks.
I just wanted to share this briefly to mark the start of my new run. I feel pretty desperate about failing the LORD so many times. I feel trapped. But I have cried to the LORD Jesus to deliver me and I know He won't let me down.
And this goes for all of us. Thank you for reading this, thank you for commenting my previous posts #Togetherwecan and #JohnBaur; I will be in touch with you soon.