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Post published by Nwmat1138

Ok I really feel like I need some help. I was on day 8 and feeling good and I don't even know what caused it but I ended up watching bbc sp whilst driving (which for me is like the most powerful) and I o'd again just from watching and nothing else. Then I think i've done it around 5 times every time without touching anything. Since I started this in oct i've managed to stay clear of all sp and have only lapsed with pics or ts porn usually. But after this I feel truly awful how far i've fallen. I literally don't have any power to stop that urge it seems. Even doing it in such dangerous conditions like driving doesn't deter me. I've genuinely thought about rehab but don't know how to go about it tbh. The other confusing thing is that it still makes me question what I really like...girls/guys/trans I really have no idea. I don't know if the sp has done this or whether it was already there???
Thank you for listening
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Foxhole
Hi dude. First thing: don't panic. You can beat it. Second: while there's tiny tiny possibility its some kind of fetish what you described here is book example of p addiction. The probability is way over 99 percent. And you can get rid off it. We all are with you, dude.
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Nwmat1138
Thanks pal I really appreciate that. I've actually found a specialist on this addiction near to me so I'm going to see if they can help too. I have to get past this it's completely debilitating
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Khufu
WHILE DRIVING???? this is getting out of hand mr, heres an idea,before you get in your ride, leave your phone in the truck,then do the driving ,then take it out the trunk, lets practice that
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Nwmat1138
My phone is my satnav and I need it for calls for work unfortunately. That won't happen again it's beyond stupid!
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modernstore99
Worry first about the reboot, and then about your sexual tastes. You know you have an addiction and have wired your brain to sP, so worry about going the 90+ days first; you're going to live an asexual lifestyle until then, just accept that. After the 90 days, without porn of course, rediscover your sexuality and rewire your brain to its original tastes. Doing this without porn will allow you to discern what you're really into. Until then, your sP addicted mind will cloud all the decisions you make. Being aroused by whatever is totally ok, but you don't know if you are not aroused by those PEOPLE, you are aroused by their PORN.
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Nwmat1138
I agree with everything you say. I just don't know how I can control the urges when they occur that's my biggest battle with this. I almost feel possessed by my mind to watch sp
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SLAA1
You can do it. First week or two arechallenging but I’m on Day 38 and it’s been lifted. I’m going to see my gf next week and I’m uneasy about having sex with her! Crazy right? But I’ll get through.
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Nwmat1138
That's amazing I'm so happy for you! It makes me wanna dig deep and prove to people I can beat this
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modernstore99
Yeah week 1-3 is real tough. Just know it gets better
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