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Post published by Nwmat1138
Ok I really feel like I need some help. I was on day 8 and feeling good and I don't even know what caused it but I ended up watching bbc sp whilst driving (which for me is like the most powerful) and I o'd again just from watching and nothing else. Then I think i've done it around 5 times every time without touching anything. Since I started this in oct i've managed to stay clear of all sp and have only lapsed with pics or ts porn usually. But after this I feel truly awful how far i've fallen. I literally don't have any power to stop that urge it seems. Even doing it in such dangerous conditions like driving doesn't deter me. I've genuinely thought about rehab but don't know how to go about it tbh. The other confusing thing is that it still makes me question what I really like...girls/guys/trans I really have no idea. I don't know if the sp has done this or whether it was already there???
Thank you for listening
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modernstore99
Worry first about the reboot, and then about your sexual tastes. You know you have an addiction and have wired your brain to sP, so worry about going the 90+ days first; you're going to live an asexual lifestyle until then, just accept that. After the 90 days, without porn of course, rediscover your sexuality and rewire your brain to its original tastes. Doing this without porn will allow you to discern what you're really into. Until then, your sP addicted mind will cloud all the decisions you make. Being aroused by whatever is totally ok, but you don't know if you are not aroused by those PEOPLE, you are aroused by their PORN.