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Hello brothers and sisters in Christ.
Sorry that's it's been awhile since my last post, however been reading your comments daily. I just wanted to confess on the weekend I was in a very bad place having thoughts of 'what's the point, I can't do this, and even feeling like hell was destined to me due to the constant relapse in sin.
One of my APs reached out to me on Sunday and helped me change my pessimistic view. He was firm but fair. Since reflecting on it all, I wasn't hungry enough and constantly adopted a victim mentality in this journey. After repenting from this way of thinking, I felt a huge shift. A shift into the next gear. My motivation for the first time in this journey is sky rocketing. I am now on day 4 of no pmo and this includes not looking at women lustfully too.
Writing this scares me because I have been on day four before and it only gets harder from here. I am anxious about the weekend approaching too as that's been my biggest weakness. What else makes this hard to write is I am always afraid of letting other people down who keep me accountable. I hate boasting over my small successes as it always leads me to falling.
If you all can keep me in prayer and reaching out as you always do that will be awesome. I will do the same.
God bless you