Post published by Diligentdrive7
Hi all, I had a relapse today but didn't watch P. I'm not going to be hard on myself, I had M instead of going full steam when I had an urge. I thought if it's inevitable for me to have a relapse let me not go all the way as I did not have the will power to resist. I once stopped P for about a year and when I stopped I had M so that I don't have urges to watch P. Although I want both to stop, I won't be hard on myself. The P is really the worst for me and in the long term I want to live free from sexual immorality. I'm just glad that I didn't watch P honestly.
I know it's wrong for me to have M, which is a sin. But if I cannot handle an urge and it feels inevitable to give in then I feel like using M to get it off is better so that as time goes on the neural pathways of P in my brain will get weaker and weaker and make it easier for me to overcome.