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I was doing great til the covid shutdown happened.
Maybe some of you can relate. I was doing so well last year. I think I had 90 days without P. I was growing and getting more involved with my church. Then covid happened. At first the lockdowns were a blessing. A break from work. I was able to paint the exterior of my house. I kept getting up at 5am but would watch lessons from Dave Ramseys financial peace university. I was still listening to teachings. But about 3 or 4 weeks into the shut down (I work construction and my state had us shut down for 5 weeks) I fell back into my old addiction.
Things have been better. But sometimes I can only last a week. I opened up about this to an elder at my church. Things are getting better but at this point I am just sick of it. Its like a cold that just wont go away. Its been almost 3 years since I was born again and first became disgusted with this sin. Almost 3 years and sometimes it seems like there hasnt been that much progress.
It haunts me to think I might one day be on my death bed and have never conquered this sin.