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I don’t know what to do anymore. I smoke, I masturbate almost everyday I pray like crazy and it doesn’t change anything. I have exam tomorrow and how can I look people in the eyes if I was constantly relapsing and even relapsed a day before this exam. I will be so drained and weak. I don’t know I don’t feel God’s presence, I ask him for sign or anything but I can’t overcome this sin. I CANT GO LONGER THAN SEVEN DAYS FOR TWO YEARS ALMOST. I just want to fall asleep and never wake up again. And I know what you all are going to say. That I should seek treatment and read Bible, well I can’t. My parents will know about my addiction, my brother everybody around me and reading Bible won’t change anything I read random verses from Bible and it doesn’t heal me, what should I do?
GodsDaughter more_vert
Your heart is longing for nurture and God's acceptance. Check this out, as he has helped me out of a deep cycle of sinning and feeling hopeless.
Sean Edie more_vert
Sean Edie
The Bible can be tough to focus on. Try an easier book that helps keep your mind active. I'm reading "Providence" by John Piper. If you don't want to read try listening to music or podcasts. Just anything to distract you
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Sean Edie more_vert
Sean Edie
or if you prefer music, try this
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Knighthawk more_vert
@Sean Edie Rend Collective is my favorite! They speak to me like not many do and best of all their songs are based on scripture!
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XandeXIV more_vert
Don’t just read the verses but spend quality time thinking about what they mean (a study Bible helps here, or and let God change your heart. I think about this a lot so please message if you want to chat over it more

- The root of our sins are our sinful hearts (Jeremiah 17:9)
- Our actions change when our heart changes (1 Tim. 1:5; 1 Kings 8:57-58)
- It is God who changes our hearts (Psalm 51:10-12, 2 Thess. 3:5)
- He starts by forgiving us through Jesus (Hebrews 9:13-14; 10:22)
- And uses trials (James 1:2-4) and His word: the Bible (Psalm 1:1-3; Deut 11:18) to change us
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frogs2345 more_vert
Maybe it's time you told your family. Have you considered that hiding your sin gives it more power? If everyone thinks you are okay, you beat yourself up because you do mot live up to the expectations you think they have. They may also be able to help. Sometimes just talking to them in those moments will solve it.
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OnlyWithJesus more_vert
I've been there, I have a 4-day streak after almost 4 years of trying to break free. I got to 107 by checking in with an accountability partner and using porn blockers. My current low streak is because I stopped checking in. Reading the