Yeah I am doing hard mode. I know it can be very difficult it took me six years to get a grip on this and I’m still dealing with paws/withdrawals.
The best advice I can give is never give up a better version of yourself is around the corner. There are many very helpful posts in this forum that can answer any specific questions and help put you kind a ease which really helped me when I had doubts as well. I wish you the best in your recovery stay strong we all deserve to live our best life and should never allow anything to hold us back from that!!!