Ali Prins

I am 15 and my birthday is at april the 22th so my birthday is close. If I have not stopped M and P (If my streak have not been successful towards that time) then that means that I have been watching P and been M about 4 years now.

I live in Sweden and I am half turk half Swede (born in Sweden but parents are turks).

Well just so you know, please don't talk trash about me because I even have friends who makes jokes about my religion, well I am a muslim so you know that, and I fully believe, please don't hate on me because of that because people nowadays have the vision that ISIS is fully Islam and they represent all muslim people in the whole world, and that is wrong, you can't say that all muslim people are terrorists because of one group, that makes no sense!
So yeah I am a muslim and please, don't hate me because of that

I really have been struggling with this urge of P and M. It is killing me from the inside and taking over my mind, if it was not because of my belief, I would have been a P and a M Zombie! I have been fighting myself, my mind for all these years, my mind is starting to think that women are only a pleasure toy for my pleasures... that is horrible! I don't want to think of women in that way! Never! Women are a unic, they're very intelligent and lovable, I love them because of their personalities that a man does not have, they are a essential thing and I don't want to think of them as a "thing", I want to think of them was a women.

I have been watching videos on youtube on how to stop the urge of M and P and it works sometimes but then it just comes to an end where I can't anymore, I turn into a monster when I see my penis, it really sounds weird but when I see my dick (no homo) I then start to think about P and it Is a horrible feeling, it feel good at that time but later I realize that I am a fool. I take cold showers to cool me down, you should start on that too! It works! and I feel like if I don't take a cold shower this day, I will have real problems of resisting P and M.

My P and M all started when I was 12. I sat on the toilet and back then I had no "feelings" for my dick, but I had the though of what happens when I just move it around, when I do the M? I did not know what would happen when I did that since back then I was a big giant retard, a really dumb person who has no common knowledge... So I just sat there and did the M and I felt this amazing feeling, it really felt good and I stopped because I was scared. But the voice in my head said: Hey, go on, it will feel very nice when you are done. So it all started like that and I started to masturbate about my classmates when I was 13, I know, I am a disgusting peace of shit! So the development of P began there... it all started because of that voice... I will never forget that one voice.

I am not social at all, I live in a small village far away from the big cities, I live on the country if I would explain it in that way... I lost my friend that lived just 50m away from my house, he did not die but he our friendship died. Not because of my P and M addiction, but because of his personality, cold blooded, a person that does not want to be wrong at any circumstances, a person who thinks he is smarter than everybody and he lies allot. So I ended our friendship in one day, I knew him for 10 years... and it all ended on one day. That was the last time I ever was with a friend, sure I have friends in my school but they live far away from me...

I am a game lover and I love playing games, its always a new feeling when I start to play. I also watch a cartoon serie that is called Samurai Jack, the best serie that I have ever watched in my entire life, I have been watching that since I was like 6, always loving it and will always too.

I am a really caring person, I don't lie, only IF I REALLY, REALLY NEED To but that is super rare! Im a calm person but I will unleash my personalities when I feel comfortable with a person, like knowing he will accept me of who I am, people in my school would never let me be the one I am, I am a very good conversation starter, in fact I am typically the only conversation starter in my class. My ego is kinda big but I am a funny guy, I have no problems with any sort of people, religion or race does not matter to me, but if you are a homosexual then I might have problems with you since I find homosexuals annoying and disturbing..

I am up for any friends, age does not matter to me, as long as you aren't a pedo, hahaha. I am surprised that you have come this far in this text, thanks for reading and my journey starts now, Bye!