AlienOverlord

Around two weeks without porn then blew it. Gradual relapse over days. I know that I can make it again and do better.

Made it about a week then caved. It was a day long process, slowly built into a relapse. Day 0, aiming for 24 hours, go.

Doing a check in half way through current day. The urges are trying to sneak up on me. Gotta stay grounded. No rationalizing peaking.

Five days of no pmo. Been a little irritable, could be the season, could be withdrawals, regardless I'm going for six next.

72 hours in. Forgive yourself and make a reset in your personal life. Will be back for day four.

48 hours complete. No rationalizing, excuses, or exceptions. Will be back for day 3.

Bam, 24 hours with no pmo. Going for 48 hours now.

Little victories, big losses. 24 hours from now I'm going to be here to proclaim one day pmo free. Add some traction to the momentum.

Made it one day, got badly triggered, and while I'm not going to call it a relapse it's still a reset. So, tonight, again I will not relapse

I shall not relapse tonight! And tomorrow, when the urges are stronger as a result, I shall refuse to cave. I will outlast and outgrow this.

Recently finished deleting a lot of porn. Now gotta stop looking up new crap. Coming to realize that overcoming this is a waiting game.

It all comes to a decision. To halt the compulsion and to redirect the obsession, or to let these things act as a leash. Break the chain.

Feel like life is incrementally getting better, yet porn addiction is threatening to tear me back down. Like standing over a widening crack.

Easily getting turned on today. If porn is fuel, then this is nothing more than the last of it being used up.

Bored? Check. Not interested in anything that's available? Check. Prime conditions for a relapse. This got me a few days ago, not again.

Porn is false promises and empty satisfaction.

I'm doing a tech/info detox. For rest of week, cut frivolous use of tech to almost nothing. Seeing if this will help with focus and memory.

Made it twelve days before caving. Lead to a full relapse. Getting back up, no way that this progress was for nothing.

Keep finding myself wanting to go to those blocked sites on autopilot. Getting a picture of how ingrained into my habits this is.

Blocked a number of sites through my router, blocked one device entirely except for a very short period for updates. Changed, threw out pass