Big Lebowski

Fapstronaut, Male, from London

Hello guys. Unfortunately some bad news. I went over two years no porn and had a moment of weakness and went into a spiral of relapses. Dec 19, 2019

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1. Big Lebowski
  It feels as if my immune system has been comprised on this journey. Used to never get ill! Flu and cold for three weeks, Jesus Christ!
  
  Apr 16, 2018
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2. Robbiebob
  Just saying hi big leb... Hope your going okay & all is well with you... Rob
  
  Apr 12, 2018
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3. Big Lebowski
  Over half a year and still experiencing withdrawals most noticeably this head pressure feeling that comes and goes, getting better though!
  
  Apr 4, 2018
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  2. Big Lebowski
    I also seem to be unable to really connect with people. Something pre porn that I was really able to do well. What porn has done to my confidence, speech and social skills has been dreadful to say the least.
    
    Apr 4, 2018
    
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4. Big Lebowski
  My PIED has gone but my erections still suffer currently at about 60% I’d say nowhere near rock hard. A very gradual process! Amazing tho!
  
  Mar 21, 2018
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  2. StraightEdge3616
    Glad you are seeing results, keep it up.
    
    Mar 21, 2018
    
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5. Big Lebowski
  My mind is becoming clearer, sleep getting better & emotions slowly retuning. A gradual process indeed. Amazing, the brain and this journey!
  
  Mar 12, 2018
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  2. Big Lebowski
    Still got a hell of a long way to go. I feel I’ll be in the one year to two year camp after abusing myself with PMO! But fuck it that is the price I pay!
    
    Mar 12, 2018
    
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  3. StraightEdge3616
    Congrats bud!
    
    Mar 12, 2018
    
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  4. Roady
    Glad to hear this!
    
    Mar 13, 2018
    
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6. diogo431509
  I like your answers. Every time I see.
  
  Mar 7, 2018
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  2. Big Lebowski
    Thanks man! Means a lot. Hope you’re doing well
    
    Mar 8, 2018
    
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7. Big Lebowski
  5 months in and feeling much better than I did 5 months ago. Still a hell of a long way to go but I am prepared and will give it my all!
  
  Mar 1, 2018
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  3. Big Lebowski
    We all get there in the end John. Took me five years to take this seriously! I wish you the very best!
    
    Mar 1, 2018
    
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  4. vxlccm
    That's great progress and you're right it takes a while for some of us. But, you'll get there. I'm here and it's good to see you catching up!
    
    Mar 8, 2018
    
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  5. sndp
    i m reading all yourprogress big lebowski and i wish at the latest post you were doing well.
    
    Dec 17, 2019
    
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8. Big Lebowski
  Had sex twice with an amazing women I met on a night out struggled to get hard first time round but then managed to do the job afterwards.
  
  Feb 18, 2018
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9. Big Lebowski
  Having on and off days with mild morning wood and the very rare spontaneous erection. I am very severe pied case but I AM healing!
  
  Feb 8, 2018
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10. Big Lebowski
  A day where the fog had cleared momentarily then I was hit by a headache and now it’s playing up again. Brain is healing folks.
  
  Feb 1, 2018
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11. Big Lebowski
  4 months in not much has changed apart from short term memory coming back. Still fighting.
  
  Jan 30, 2018
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12. Big Lebowski
  So a porn wet dream in the early hours of this morning. Really interesting because it felt like I was watching through a computer too. Weird
  
  Jan 20, 2018
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  2. Deleted Account
    Hey - it's a normal male event. I've never had a wet dream (never in my life - not just since Nofap), but would consider it just a semen release similar to when it passes as I empty my bladder, etc.
    
    Jan 20, 2018
    
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13. Big Lebowski
  WOW! Just completed my first mindful meditation attempt, thought I’d last 5 mins.. ended up 28 minutes! Blown away. Truly great experience.
  
  Jan 16, 2018
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14. Big Lebowski
  Had a brief porn dream that I somehow managed to close down & divert into a whole new sexual dream. Weird but shows I’m getting there.
  
  Jan 11, 2018
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  2. Deleted Account
    The best dreams are the ones in which I turn down an opportunity to watch porn.
    
    Jan 11, 2018
    
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15. Big Lebowski
  Oh joy, brain fog back in action again. These withdrawals are hell on Earth. I long for the day when I can think clearly.
  
  Jan 8, 2018
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  2. vxlccm
    Is it better after the past 30 days of some better meditation and things?
    
    Feb 10, 2018
    
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16. Big Lebowski
  Another wet dream last night. Slowly noticing improvements with memory. Can actually sit and watch a movie in its entirety now too.
  
  Jan 4, 2018
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  2. Big Lebowski
    I would struggle usually watching anything for less than 5 minutes usually. Also to note I had felt libido for two days as well, felt like I wanted to fuck anything and everything. Not really accustomed to that feeling too much as I have trained my mind over the years watching porn.
    
    Jan 4, 2018
    
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  3. Big Lebowski
    Oh and too note as well. During the libido surge yesterday and the day before my erections were quite hard as well and I had no trouble getting it up to thought alone and truthfully it kept me up overnight so I had little sleep.
    
    Jan 4, 2018
    
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17. Robbiebob
  Hay big fella. Hope all is well with you... Wet dream... Bloody-hell I never had one of those sints I was 14, anyhow rock on.. Rob
  
  Jan 3, 2018
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18. Big Lebowski
  Jesus Christ, just woken up from three wet dreams in one night, crazy!
  
  Dec 30, 2017
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  3. Ready to be healthy
    I don't think I have ever had any- even after 70 days PMO free- well Good Luck- be careful with Chaser effect and urges- heard they can be strong after wet dreams.
    
    Dec 30, 2017
    
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  4. Big Lebowski
    You know what I never experience any chaser effects and urges really. I am in a bit of a flat line for the moment although it is decreasing.
    
    Dec 30, 2017
    
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  5. vibemaker
    Man dude, better listen to some creedance now.
    
    Dec 30, 2017
    
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19. vibemaker
  Congrats on 70 days, el duderino ;)
  
  Dec 12, 2017
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  2. Big Lebowski
    Thanks, man!
    
    Dec 12, 2017
    
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20. Big Lebowski
  Feeling a bit better as of today. A bit more ‘connected’ to my surroundings.
  
  Dec 11, 2017
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