Recent content by flyswat

Checking in. Urges and ideas are about low-mid level. On the cusp of 90 days and I'm feeling a kind of strange about it. It was almost a year ago that I set my intention to stop after 50 years of almost daily PMO. Since then it's been resets, streaks, slightly longer streaks, then resets, etc...

Checking in. Urges and ideas are about low-mid level. It feels strange to be on the cusp of 90 days. It's taken just about a year of starts, resets, streaks, slightly longer streaks and resets to get to 89 days. I know that the number of days doesn't matter as much as the consistent, life-long...

Keep going brother, you're off to a good start.

Thank you brother, great news about the biopsy. I hope everything keeps heading in the right direction.

Literally awesome!

Urges much stronger today. Checking in here rather than giving in to thoughts of browsing work social media accounts. The weekend was great, more intimacy and connection with my wife than we've had all year. With 90 days just around the corner and progress in my marriage it seems like my old...

Congratulations on 2 weeks!

Urges picking up today. Checking in here rather than giving in to thoughts of browsing work social media accounts. The weekend was great, more intimacy and connection with my wife than we've had all year. I need to keep focusing on all positives of staying PMO free, they're definitely not worth...

Amen brother.

This week has been a little better than last week. Urges have lessened somewhat. I should be doing more in terms of meditation and other positive habits I'm trying to develop. The week's not over though. This week (updated 8/5): 3 days meditation 3.5 hours exercise

Impressive intimacy you have with your wife. My therapist specializes in Internal Family Systems, a lot of our recovery work is designed to recognize and acknowledge my addict and other "parts" and understand how these parts have controlled so much of my behavior. The goal of this is to relax...

This week has been a little better. Urges have lessened somewhat. I could be doing better in terms of meditation and other positive habits I'm trying to develop. The week's not over though. This week (updated 8/5): 3 days meditation 3.5 hours exercise

Learning from resets has been an important part of this process. I hit 2 weeks, then reset. Thought about what lead up to it, what I could do differently, and tried again. The second time through was a bit easier. Same thing at one month, then two months. It's taken me almost a year to reach 70+...

Thank you brother.

Urges have been much more present this week than they have for a while now. This is my longest streak ever and the thought of it is making me a little shaky. Probably something to do with ingrained self-defeating thoughts. I need to be especially mindful and vigilant; being accountable for...