After staying completely away from PMO (even in thoughts), today I almost slipped back in the hell, I need to quickly find a goal to aim at.
Dependence is Misery, Independence is happiness. - Vivekananda; True freedom means freedom from desires.
I had an old account on here I remember you as one of my “conspiracy” buddies. Hope you’re doing well my friend.
Passed the exams without giving exams, cause they decided to give marks based on past 4 years performance and cancel exams due to covid
Yeah! I am doing good. Sorry for late reply, actually I was little busy with my preparation for exams, and therefore wasn't checking social media. How are things going with you?
Not good at all sorry for responding you very late because to be honest I wasn't busy on my work or hobbies I was binging put thank god that I keep trying for some reason why even when things seem meaningless. Also how you do it bro.
Back to day 0, 37 days was a good streak, I almost had forgotten that I was doing nofap, porn didn't came even once in my mind in these days
I like this kind of streak, it was completely effortless. Just do what you love, or try to develop some new skills and you won't even realize that you were trying to fight something.
@Starman123 sorry for late reply. That lockdown is disgusting and is spoiling everyone's life. I hope it ends fast. In our country they are again thinking of imposing lockdown, they will impose it by December, before end of this year.
@Starman123 You will have to learn to enjoy your life while staying at house, we can't trust government, they might hold it for more 2 or 3 months.
I just realized that in whole class, I am the only one who is writing this math exam, others don't even bother to attempt the test.
oh yeah lets be bad bois, anarchy and shit. Get over your edgy phase already. What matters are you actions you do today that you can look back 10 years later. Not giving a fuck is nothing to be proud of. You don't become a good because you do good for yourself.
Please man, I know all those things, and after all I am not doing bad with anyone, I am just not attempting a exam, You might call me lazy, but I don't feel like wasting my time on that paper. Anyway, our teacher never corrects these papers, he randomly puts marks, only final exams marks matters.
The point that you are missing is that this right here defines your grades by defining your attitude. I really don't like to talk down people's work but if you would see my time schedule you would shit bricks. If you don't want to serve others change your attitude towards work. "If I cease becoming better, I shall cease to be good"
Today morning I had the most relaxing meditation of my entire life, I felt my head becoming light and all those stress & anxiety leaving.
I was aware practicing mindfulness, and still it felt like I have woke up from a long sleep. Feeling refreshed and positive.
I feel like, I am sinking into the hell, but feel too much tired and frightened, there is no motivation to save myself or to do anything good.
The answer is in your own words: God. Go back to Him. His love is the thing you need. His love will give you the strength. He wants to be your protection shield. And I know it works.
I spent past 3 days thinking what is the purpose of life, why this universe even exist in the first place, what should I do, and why etc.
It was like a sleepy state, I was completely lost in myself, had many negative thoughts etc. but I am happy that I am out of those feelings now. I am feeling awake again.
Relapse! What am I doing on this site, I am relapsing again and again? Am I really serious about it, why the hell am I doing this?
Don't worry. I relapsed for months Till I managed to get to Day 72. After that, I relapsed like 5-6 times for weeks. I'm back on the journey.
You knew spending time on this site makes you relapse. Leave it for sometimes, for sometimes the best thing one should do to progress is to avoid some things and some people.
Relapse! I am surely stuck in chaser effect, I shouldn't stay here any longer or else I will get trapped again.
Yeah! I was awake because that day I had slept in afternoon for 5 hours and at night I was initially watching movie explanations than I came across a really bad thumbnail. Ah! I shouldn't have messed up with my sleep cycle.
Lol I was pretty surprised to see you update that late/early since most of the Indians here aren't active at that time. I go on Google to check and I see it's 4 AM there XD I legit thought u pulled an allnighter because of insomnia from urges. Anwyay, you know better now.
