HelpMe81

I have been a slave to PMO since I was 12, I am now 39. I am a Catholic but have only recently come back to my faith. Father was an alcoholic and had P at his shop (which I first saw at 12). I had sex at 15 and never stopped having multiple partners there after. My parents divorced when I was 17 due to infidelity, mother tried to commit suicide at 18, I had a child when I was 19 and had legal custody battles for many years. I married a different woman at 20 and divorced 4 years later after constant partying, physical fighting and alcoholism. What followed after that was smoking, alcoholism (hospitalized 4 times), mushrooms, sleeping around, excessive partying, vandalism, arson, reckless driving, grand theft, indecent exposure, sociopathic behaviour, major depression, suicidal and homicidal ideation, psychiatric hospitalization and all the while uncontrollable PMO. For the last 5 years I haven't gone more that one week, ever.