hollinger
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hollinger

Fapstronaut, Male, 22

not proud of myself for cumming in wet dream Mar 3, 2020

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    1. hollinger
      hollinger
      not proud of myself for cumming in wet dream
      1. hollinger
        hollinger
        i dont think it's a relapse but i feel less energy and slept in the entire day. i dont have that competitive nature as much. soon chess tournament - we'll see how it goes. i had a sex appointment for tomorrow, might have to cancel it.
        Mar 3, 2020
      2. hollinger
        hollinger
        i dont have the wish for sex at all which i dont like. because that sex drive was something that made me do my projects and all the important stuff in life. well it comes back.
        Mar 3, 2020
      3. MONSTER MONK
        MONSTER MONK
        Sex appointment? O.o
        Mar 3, 2020
    2. hollinger
      hollinger
      gotta admit that im very close to a relapse, at least on a mental level
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      2. hollinger
        hollinger
        yep im still impulsive. but it slowly goes away. getting a hooker even crossed my mind. with a regular girl would have sex any time right now...
        Feb 22, 2020
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      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        rewrlskngtrjdgljafldskg okay doesnt matter. just stop in the right moment. you dont need to talk more than is needed or to force yourself do anything. chill and everything nice happens to you.
        Feb 22, 2020
      4. Deleted Account
        Deleted Account
        Well done controlling yourself man! And now have a peaceful sleep and day! You can do this man
        Feb 23, 2020
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    3. hollinger
      hollinger
      and another wet dream. need to apply my energy more
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      2. hollinger
        hollinger
        alcohol is such a medicine sometimes, made the pain inside me much less. lessened it. and i'm feeling a lot, despite the wet dream. my roommate is pretty cool
        Feb 6, 2020
      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        in impulsive level i have hatred towatrds every women almost. just for the past rejections, thatäs why it takes so much time and effort to form a relationship with thtme. if i even want it, provavly i fdo.
        Feb 6, 2020
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      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        69+ you cantg escape the real ity or your feelings or your fears. i'm kind of doing it i feel, writing h ere is just an easier solution, but okay not that bad.
        Feb 5, 2020
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      4. hollinger
        hollinger
        the last one was bad, but okay tomorrow i'll be stronger, and there's another day so i just need to rest now and do everything as well as i can tomorrow. ok and i do really like some part of myself, most parts actually and i love myself.
        Feb 5, 2020
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      5. hollinger
        hollinger
        hhj whenever you're trying to feel something you dont think or the othwer way you just lose yousrself, and it's torture, right now im also just foricing to right something. actually im tired enough and go to sleep tirmely oraeoirjairjealrjor just any second. skjllkjsd stay cool.
        Feb 5, 2020
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    5. Deleted Account
      Deleted Account
      Heey man how are you doing?
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      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        I wouldn't say I'm happy, but much calmer and thinking less. During the date I was all the time analyzing what to say, no point and the girl felt it and even said that it must be tiring. Chess player's problem I guess to overanalyze.
        Feb 4, 2020
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      4. Deleted Account
        Deleted Account
        Well if that is what she needed I would say well done, but also look for what you want and need!! I am off to bed sleep well man!
        Feb 4, 2020
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      5. hollinger
        hollinger
        Thanks, yes that's definitely the priority. You too, for easier conversation you can add me on skype too. or some social media, though I generally hate it.
        Feb 4, 2020
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    6. hollinger
      hollinger
      Crazy urges again, met some really interesting girl last night
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      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        i gotta business meeting soon, cant believe i'm wasting time like this and what the fuck i wrote to twitter, there are people who respect me i should not write everything that comes to my mind, sometimes it is about peace and just being free.
        Feb 3, 2020
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      4. Deleted Account
        Deleted Account
        Man I might not be the best buddy for you now but please message me and we will fight through this together. You're not alone
        Feb 3, 2020
      5. Deleted Account
        Deleted Account
        And man everyone had those relapses, but you didn't fap which is great. I can imagine you feel horrible man but count on me!!! Message me.
        Feb 3, 2020
    7. hollinger
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      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        it just takes away my need to see naked people, but as ive mentioned before it cant be that easy, you're supposed to make a little effort or be the attractor in real life, i am actually.
        Jan 23, 2020
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      4. hollinger
        hollinger
        i kind of just wanna forget everything i know and still watch it in the hope that maybe i feel better afterwards, you never do after cumming in front of a computer screen.
        Jan 23, 2020
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      5. hollinger
        hollinger
        main influence is demotivation and when you start questioning your purpose and your skills, i have it overall in balance but yeah need for love is still there
        Jan 23, 2020
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    8. hollinger
      hollinger
      After an hour of watching porn I found the self-love to stop
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      2. hollinger
        hollinger
        Damn it's good, but good stuff is often bad for you. I should not see it even as an option, but okay its tempting we all know. i had a weird day, wanted some pleasure, but thats not the best way for real, rather one beer even than porn.
        Jan 21, 2020
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      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        I should remember that sex without love is an egoistic act and it's not good for artsy persons self development, so it gives you nothing, improves you none, only feels good and that in a long run is toxical okokkk.
        Jan 21, 2020
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        hollinger
        Jan 21, 2020
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    9. hollinger
      hollinger
      If I just waste time thinking of sex, should I do it?
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      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        and i'm just wasting time again, wrote to like10-15 tinder girls to have sex with me and some other random stuff, watched some naked pictures from twitter and just really close to a relapse, feel like losing my mind if just for a second. maybe the itch goes away
        Jan 21, 2020
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      4. hollinger
        hollinger
        you're then losing your firm discipline being and become impulsive, it starts out of fear to just express yourself freely again and then you escape to pleasure. very common pattern for me, but i stop in the middle now.
        Jan 21, 2020
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      5. hollinger
        hollinger
        technically its a relapse, because watching porn feels good and i get dopamine out of it even if i dont fap, i'm physical. i know its bad, but i just want something bad. cant relapse still, need some motivation, cant cum i mean. ofc i wont, why even torture then.
        Jan 21, 2020
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    10. hollinger
      hollinger
      Don't lose yourself by escaping in pleasure
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      2. hollinger
        hollinger
        Two clean weeks and now starting to slip a little, watched some soft-core lesbian from twitter
        Jan 18, 2020
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    12. hollinger
      hollinger
      I really need to start studying for my exams, is there anyone who wants to make a bet with me to not watch pornographic material?
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      2. hollinger
        hollinger
        i cant fucking fail my exams, it's too important, but procrastination continues and porn is the worst of the methods, i dont think, i just say what i feel
        Jan 5, 2020
      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        i just want some positive thing to happen right away, tra küll, okei stfu, tra ole vait, because if it doesnt i feel like i just wasted my time and fuck of course i did, but if sth positive happens, i get new motivation, even if someone externally motivates me and makes a bet with me, im very competitive, id love that
        Jan 5, 2020
      4. hollinger
        hollinger
        ok tell me if you can, i want it and you should too, its for our both, to improve and get to the top, to the ultimate top, where we are the people that give and are admired for it and there's just immense peace inside
        Jan 5, 2020
    13. hollinger
      hollinger
      The best I can do now is take responsibility for my mistake and choose optimal course
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      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        is there anyone who wants to compete with me and make a bet who lasts longer without watching any pornographic material
        Jan 5, 2020
      4. hollinger
        hollinger
        first we need to meet each other and show we're serious, whoever loses gives the other some money, symbolic amount lets say 10 euros, that would be cool
        Jan 5, 2020
      5. hollinger
        hollinger
        if you want to be a laughing full of emotions person, with anger, sadness, everything then stop wasting your time in front of a screen to numb yourself. stand up to your emotions and face them, seems like a better strategy
        Jan 5, 2020
    14. Robbiebob
      Robbiebob
      Ho young man I feel for you & letting you know that it's a road most traveled in our struggle of what you are doing through... Remember porn is a insidious trap & a fraud, hear you load and clear my friend... R.
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      2. hollinger
        hollinger
        Yes it's horrible, I hate people who watch it. Thanks, appreciate it. For a 56-year old it's probably easier
        Jan 5, 2020
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      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        I'm actually a cool guy, paly football and very competitive but just in comfort I want to avoid something and say fuck it, easier than to deal with rejection.
        Jan 5, 2020
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    15. hollinger
      hollinger
      I hate myself for cumming, can't keep doing it
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      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        Fuck this, need to rest and just start the challenge again, every day I pass I give myself stg good ,idk what
        Jan 5, 2020
      4. hollinger
        hollinger
        Should have still gone to hooker, at least some experience, fucking hell, help me. Thinking should I post, because needy, I'm actually not
        Jan 5, 2020
      5. hollinger
        hollinger
        Ok I'm writing nonsense to that Robbiebob, I need to change sth I don't know what
        Jan 5, 2020
    16. hollinger
      hollinger
      I'm very close to a relapse, watching some soft-core porn and just naked women
      1. hollinger
        hollinger
        So much effort to get real women, I'll probably stop now
        Jan 3, 2020
      2. hollinger
        hollinger
        And I still continued just to prove that yes you get very easily addicted, managed to end at the right time at least
        Jan 3, 2020
      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        Seeing pussy shouldn't be that easy, it does require some effort and action
        Jan 3, 2020
    17. hollinger
      hollinger
      i need to get out of it, just wasting time on youtube wtf i should kill myself
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      2. IAmLegion
        IAmLegion
        YouTube isn't a reason to kill yourself over dude, what the hell...

        Just chill man. Take it easy.
        Dec 30, 2019
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      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        i think it might be if my procrastination methods dont end, omegle again and youtube was for the rest of the day.
        Dec 30, 2019
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      4. hollinger
        hollinger
        im a hugely intelligent potential guy, it's a sin to lose it like this, but the way out takes so much energy
        Dec 30, 2019
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    18. hollinger
      hollinger
      I have a new addiction: omegle and chatroulette. Help, can it be considered as porn and should I quit it the same way?
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      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        women are distraction overall anyways, stop looking for these dating and escort sites as well. these are relapse too, you get the same dopamine simply for wanting to see who could you possibly fuck and be in that comfortable cloud
        Dec 26, 2019
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      5. fg4795
        fg4795
        Man it is an addiction. So it is wrong. It's P substitution, it's like stop going to casino but do online betting. Quit all addiction and take back your life
        Dec 26, 2019
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    19. hollinger
      hollinger
      And I ended my horniness with 2 consecutive wet dreams
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      2. hollinger
        hollinger
        Kind of see it as a relapse, because it was intentional and I feel much less energy. In the dream I just went wild
        Dec 25, 2019
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      3. IAmLegion
        IAmLegion
        That's what dreams are for, I guess. (Going wild)

        It's better than your hand though, that's for sure, so good job about that :D
        Dec 25, 2019
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    20. hollinger
      hollinger
      Pornography is what happens when a man insists on being energized by a woman; he uses her to get a feeling that he is a man.
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      3. hollinger
        hollinger
        Self-respect is very important, cant lose all of it.
        Dec 23, 2019
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      5. hollinger
        hollinger
        Dec 23, 2019
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