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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IAFO3v_Ucio, I have the same phenomenon, some voice always critizising if I should say that or not, does it make me weaker or not etc. "Trouble is better than boring"

And I basically relapsed, watched 2- hours porn and cummed a little, then finished. Anyways, I don't feel mad, it was a mistake on purpose, guess I wanted it. But now at least 1 week nothing again.

Goal is still to improve my life with it and watching it is literally saying you're not capable of real intimacy. I'm going to do 30 days.

If you speak up, speak up with confidence. Important rule

https://elatedpenning.com/what-is-nofap-flatline-types-of-nofap-flatline-what-to-do-during-a-nofap-flatline/. Nofap flatline might be the reason actually why I failed.

Hey man. I just want you to know that I'm reading your posts... and you have soo much potential. The anger you are feeling is really aimed at no one. Be calm and understand, that there is no doubt you are going to beat this thing. Peace!

I'm far from stable, I want to be open to people and say fuck fear, allow myself to be angry and speak my mind, not doubt every step of the way. I guess it just takes practice.

It is better to deal with our issues instead of fapping them away! Good luck

and now Ive spent last few hours numbing myself in front of computer (no porn, other escapes, even overthinking is one) and understand how right I was, its good to have feelings, even negative ones for starters: https://jodymoore.com/numbing-happiness/

https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.theinspirationallifestyle.com/our-crippling-addiction-to-comfort/amp/ - good article

https://www.theinspirationallifestyle.com/perfectionism/, https://markmanson.net/hate-yourself

Uncertainty is a powerful, often painful, but necessary teacher. When we buy into the misunderstanding that our peace of mind comes from knowing the answer or figuring out the solution to a problem, we suffer from over-thinking and obsessing.

nice. The problem with us guys is we are fixers and think we need to have all the answers. When we give up this notion and admit we don't know, we open the door to learning the answers.

I definitely think way too much but at the same time I don't think (pun) that I am thinking effectively. I didn't get a chance to check out the blog. I may check it out later but I appreciate your desire and hunger to transform into the butterfly you are becoming. A manly butterfly ;)

It also supplies me with a virtual "family"...and when you're lonely and don't have any friends, it becomes all too easy to sit on your phone or computer for hours on end.

When I'm done, I don't feel happy, satisfied or fulfilled. I know I've wasted my time, and I hate myself for it. So while you've addressed some of these things and are right to some degree, I wanted to say that for me personally, "happiness" isn't why I'm addicted to the internet. I just want to forget who I am.

- just a comment under that great video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eCDH1PFAQog. Can say I relate to this.

I was just mad at myself at the time and seeked for some extra motivation, I'll think about the forum.

I think before comes loneliness, then addiction to porn or any other kind, so main thing is to just be connected to people.

https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/1ga25m/procrastination_one_more_cant_hurt/

http://i.imgur.com/kxXzz9t.png

Yes maybe it is. But you will fail. Who are you trying to prove something those who didnt believed in you or yourself ? Stop it!

Dont talk. Dont make promises. Just actions. You dont need to prove anything

I'm trying to prove to myself yes, to convince myself that I'm the guy who does what he tells, because lately I've not been like that.

Chess addiction is not a baf habit xD

No it's a bad habit, at least bullet addiction, like gambling

Welcome to nofap :)

Welcome ;-)