Huntin89

I decided to join NoFap in effort to lead a better life. I graduated in 2014 with a Bachelors in business management and immediately started my career in financial planning. I really enjoy my job and I'm eager to succeed in this competitive field but I knew there were a few things holding me back from doing so.

I was always shy when it came to women. I never had a problem being open with my friends on the football team but I never had a sense of confidence around women because of my weight. I started hitting the gym hard my senior year of college after telling one of my best friends I had feelings for her. At that point I was 285lbs. She of course told me she wasn't interested and I don't blame her. Anyway, that felt like hell so the next day I started hitting the gym, this was early October 2013. Shortly after my graduation May 2014 I weighed in at 227lbs. I'm pretty muscular as I played football through college and was always a top lifter.

So my body had changed but my confidence didn't for another 7 months when I finally asked a girl out. She was super hot but it didn't go past 6 weeks. At this point I decided I liked going out with attractive girls so i joined a dating website and went out with another girl for another 6 weeks but she decided she wasn't ready for a relationship. After her I started dating a girl i used to work with. This is where Ill back track. Since the age of 12 I've been looking at porn. Not always in the same frequency but yeah its been that long. I'm currently 26. Until 2 years ago, I had no confidence around women and maintained my virginity.

With this last girl things were heating up one night and long story short, my junk didn't work. I tried convincing myself I was just nervous but I knew what was going on. Porn has had a major impact on my life in many ways but that was absolutely devastating for both me and the girl. I'm still a virgin and at this point am on the fence about waiting until marriage. At the very least I want to wait for the right women but I want to be the best man I can be when the time comes. I need help badly and I think this may be the place for that. Thanks for taking the time to read about me. I wish you all the very best of success.