I_WantToBreakFree

My personal story: Back in high school, I was nowhere near tempted by the thought of PMO. Great family, friends, awesome school environment, I was involved in activities, it was very simple overall. That is until I had met my 1st girlfriend. We fell in love and long story short, we became sexually active. Once I realized the relationship itself was toxic, I had to end it. Not only was I heartbroken over all the things she did behind my back, but I realized that I wouldn't be getting that satisfying feeling anymore (if you know what I mean). I then turned to PMO. In my mind, I was keeping myself from making bad decisions and maintaining a stable mind. I have attempted NoFap time and time again, with my longest streak being 2 in a half months, but based on the couple of girls I've dated my first two semesters of college a few months back, I realize that when it doesn't work out, I fall back into that same self-destructive habit to numb the pain of heartbreak. I figured enough is enough, so I'm opening up. I recognize that I'm not the only person who has struggled with this, and I hope to gain some pro methods from people as I go through this period of time abstaining.