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Back. Set more personal goals for myself. Going to try and join the USSF/USAF. Also, gonna keep phone away from myself. Stifling progress.

I hope their gastrointestinal issues won’t go further than that…

I hate to stress but if it’ll beat PMO and maybe drive my goals further than so be it.

I don’t have many avenues for money. A contract job with shaky cash and a DevOps course that hasn’t paid off won’t pay for anything.

I don’t want to dwell on that but it’s really the only way I can focus on my goals.

I’m not ready for that. Financially or emotionally. I doubt NoFap would grant me money but maybe motivation….

Their death would drastically change the trajectory of my life and my siblings. I would then have to pay for a funeral and their schooling.

A family member has been getting sick recently and I don’t want to wake up hearing screaming or unfortunate news.

I have come (not like that) to the full realization that I cannot PMO if I’m feeling emotional or upset.

Day 5

Also: Day 4

I can’t wait to reach thirty days so I can stop looking at the red-hued zombie in my pfp each time I log on.

Honestly this year I’m done looking at screens. I’m saving up so I can buy “it”. I’ve done it before and I felt better doing it.

Day 3. I remember last year I started my streak on Easter and it only lasted for two weeks.

There has to be a better way to deal with blue balls, man.

It's like my body said "nah fuck your streak, here are some images to help you splooge you're welcome".

Broke my streak. I had the "blues", it was very uncomfortable. I apologize to my fellow nofap warriors. I promise to you 30 days this time.

Day 25

Day 12?

Today is Monday. Today is a new day.