I have beaten this by a combination of relying on God (asking Him to fight the battle for me), and actively doing everything i can irl. Avoid all triggers, delete any stash you have no matter how much you treasure it.
Remember your future and your family’s future DEPENDS on you overcoming pmo. Your son, in years to come needs you to man up right now. Man up! Go! You got this!!
Ditch the masturbation too, it’s a sin and makes you much worse than you could be. It is tied to P. I know you want to test whether your ding dong works, but it will work in time, it may take months to years eventually it will work well. Just stay on the right path and trust and have faith that by doing the right thing, blessings will come your way. Stop trying to arouse yourself and don’t touch your dick at all
I respect your journey! For me, obedience was a skill to learn. And, I'm a little slow. Recovery would be happening at all without Jesus, though.