Excuses from my side!!!!!!! But, do you really have to feel sorry for us ( forum people), I doubt, and think it's you yourself with whom you owe sorry.....
Just make a note in your diary about why it happened and start doing some positive things regularly (such as exercise and meditation). Read a couple of success stories on here as well.
You are stronger than you know. Your post is full of challenges. I personally think you are so brave for being able to continue. That takes courage! Carry with you the realisation that you are worth so much more than that. You are precious.
i believe i'd not been the person looks down on women, and dominate them before waching porn. ill take myself back from porn certainly!
First of all understand the pattern that leads you to watch porn. Understand why you watch porn ? Understand how to break the chain of action that leads you to porn. No I am not talking about "Porn-Blockers"