Recent content by Leonflado

Day zero after a good few weeks again. No more excuses now. My number one life goal is to never even think of masturbating or fantasizing about sex again in my life. Fuck that disgusting shit forever. I'm done.

Day 7 or 8. I decided I'm gonna stop posting here. I just got a full time job which is a huge step forward for me and I'm too busy with my life in general atm so I will for now stop visiting the forum. Thanks everyone for the support and keep up the good fight!

Day 6 and my fourth day in my new Job. I am struggling a bit but it is good to have a reason to get up in the morning and hopefully I will get better over time.

Day 1 Check in I really do not want to relapse ever again. Relapsing destroys my relationships and my reward circuit. Every relapse is a huge tragedy. After a relapse I always feel the subconcious changes in my behaviour, and it is just disturbing and disgusting.

Alright, I just let myself down yet another time. Relapse. And just like with the last 3 relapses I am drunk and sleep deprived. So this is it, no more alcohol. I can get along well without drinking every weekend. I will stay abstinent from alcohol for 3 months. It is something I have never done...

Day 13, had a hard time abstaining today as I was up late yesterday evening and layed in bed the whole day, but did manage to bring my thoughts back in the right direction. I can totally relate to this observation. I told myself countless times already that I will stop masturbating forever and...

11 days I think, taking it day by day. Starting to feel the benefits again especially eye contact etc. Every day is a fight I must win.

checkin' 1 week or so

checkin, 5 days now or so. I feel like when I have a good streak going I tend to feel safe which then leads to me slipping up. So from now everyday is day zero. Let's see how it works. I wish everyone a happy Christmas! I pray that all your dreams and desires come true!! To even be alive on this...

checkin'

day 1 again Mistake that led to relapse: Being awake for too long and really drunk. Felt too safe and forgot my goals. Gotta remember I'm a recovering addict and need the full 90 days of being pmo free. After the relapse I now feel shitty again and depressed. But I take it as a learning so it's...

Thank you your message already helped me more than you think I smile and hope you have a great day tomorrow, make it the best you can

Hi everyone, please don't read if you're depressed Tonight I drank too much alcohol. And it was with friends so I was really motivated at the beginning of the evening and it was all fun and games till a certain point. I started at 6 pm and now it is almost 6 am. The first 3-4 hours it was great...

Day 17

Well done mate, keep it going. Here's to the next month! Day 17, occasional urges and hungover but pushing through. I sometimes still get feelings of low self worth which then becomes a self fulfilling prophecy. I have to remember there is no shortcut to success and to feel good about myself I...