LostSon41

LostSon41

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  • LostSon41
    60 days in, no urges in a very long time, but I genuinely have a strong fear of relapsing. I realize I'm always at my best when truly locked in to NoFap.
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    11th grade I had my best academic semester ever, likely contributing to getting into a good college. My freshman fall of college was also fantastic. My productivity was insane and I pushed myself past the limit, while growing up and doing adult things for the first time. Maybe if I get a girlfriend, it will fill the gap of fear. But when I'm single that chance of relapse is always there.
    LostSon41
    LostSon41
    I've been this far before and thought I was invincible. And multiple times since I've felt at the bottom of the pit. Ridding this from my life is genuinely urgent now because I believe kindling exists in NoFap. The evidence is there personally and from others.
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    LostSon41
    I've got to do EVERYTHING to prevent P back in my life. If I can find a way for M to exist in a healthy manner I'll reintroduce it, but I have no idea if that's viable. For now definitely not and likely beyond 100 days and further.
    LostSon41
    I need to focus on managing my free time. I need to prevent myself from having to stay up too late every night.
    ryan9---0
    hey man how is your journey going?
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    Sorry for the delayed response, haven’t checked here in a while. My journey has been mostly good this summer. I’ve had dark moments but they’re mostly only contained within days where I relapse.
    LostSon41
    LostSon41
    I counted that I PMO’d or MO’d on 9 days this summer, out of 70 days. So 12%. However, some of those were back-to-back days, so overall I’ve felt more free this summer than the last 3.
    LostSon41
    Returning to day counting. It's worked before. My new goals:
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    1. Make your bed every day.
    2. Cold showers in mornings.
    3. Aim to get in bed at approximately 10 PM on weeknights.
    4. JOURNAL EVERY NIGHT.
    LostSon41
    LostSon41
    I will gradually introduce new restrictions upon myself (I need them). I wish to permanently transition from grinding my mobile games to being only a casual gamer. I wish to remove all ways to access short form content, and restrict myself from social media. I also wish to double down on my faith by reading the Bible more.
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    Deleted member 552787
    Wishing you success with your new routine. :)
    LostSon41
    Only one PMO without the day count...If I can keep a low average in the coming months I'll keep this up.
    LostSon41
    From now on, I'm forgetting the day count. I'm here to improve my general mental health, and I fear the day number may be taking a toll.
    LostSon41
    Wow! I finally managed to get back on here unblocked on my school computer. With X-rated sites still blocked, I can stop using my phone.
    LostSon41
    Coomers are really weird. They also seem pretty dumb too, like I genuinely don’t have a single coomer friend who’s smarter than me…
    LostSon41
    5 weeks full hardmode. I’m hitting this at an earlier time of the school year, I want this momentum to carry me through winter.
    LostSon41
    Been playing Fortnite all day. In fortnite Season 5 in 2018, I didn’t know what masturbation was. I kinda felt like that today.
    Bingles
    Bingles
    Using Fortnite seasons as a time reference is peak brain rot man. Don't play that hamster wheel game. Victory royale won't make you happy.
    LostSon41
    LostSon41
    It did!! ;)
    Bingles
    Bingles
    We got a, number one victory royale. Yeah Fortnite we're 'bout to get down (get down). ten kills on the board right now - just wiped out tomato town.
    LostSon41
    Praying for the souls lost in Israel. Can’t believe I actually touch myself for pleasure, when innocent people are being gunned down.
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    This goes to all Israelis, Palestinians, and anyone caught in a crisis that many do not want to be a part of. It breaks my heart to know that I sit in the comfort of a home while others see their walls covered in bullet holes or blown to bits.
    LostSon41
    LostSon41
    According to what I’ve seen on the news, a 9/11-level of people have been killed…2 years ago I was in a class with a kid who went into Israel’s military…I pray that no more civilians are hurt by this conflict.

    Why do I need to worry about fapping? It should be so easy compared to what other people are going through.
    onceaking
    onceaking
    Probably because it's an addiction.
    LostSon41
    Gonna try and limit myself to check open this website up only twice per day.
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    This is for 2 reasons. First, this site can act as a Twitter substitute. Second, there are so many discussions on porn that the thoughts that arise from these discussions are often porn. So, the chance of bad urges will go down the less I get on this site. Gotta keep on making changes to improve myself, or things won’t work out the way I want.
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