Newstart1622

Last 45 days have felt like forever. Just want to get to 90 days. Got to keep going

Day 45: Half way through. Obviously I have no plans to go back after 90 days but it is something to forward to.

Day 44: Continued flatline. Tommorow and it'll be 45 days.

Day 43: Forgot to post which I guess is a good sign. Urges were gone today

Day 42: 6 weeks! Also 3 days until I am half way through 90 days. Not gonna lie it has felt forever but it is worth it.

Day 41: Urges and thoughts felt less distracting. 6 week streak tommorow!

Day 40: Day 40! Not pissed off about the dream. Not in my control and it kind of worries me with all that research on prostate cancer.

And would you know it, a wet dream. Don't remember it just know it happened from 5:30 to 8

Day 39: Urges really high. Been over two weeks since a wet dream

Also, my anxiety is at an all time low. School is better because I am less inclined to avoid thing. May be unrelated, who knows.

Day 38: My brain was begging today. Honestly though , thoughts are much cleaner and less fetish based.

Day 37: Brain was convincing me that going back to the old ways was a good idea. "30 days is not bad" I noticed this yesterday thank god.

Day 36: Just a few more days til day 40. Seen alot of people relapse around then. Gotta keep going.

Day 35: Remembering why I started and how screwed up I was. Temptation 0. Also 5 week streak!

Day 34: No tempatations at all today

Day 33: Ironic after yesterday that I was the most tempted I have been for ages. Shit day at school and wanted a way out. Thank god I didn't

Day 32: Flatline again. Never going back, urges persist but the desire to act on it does not

Day 31: Felt so tempted after writing off day 30. Without my new attitude I would've caved in. Thank god I didn't

Day 30: Officially 30 days now. Can't let my guard down but I think I'm free

Haven't been up this late since I last quit 30 days ago. I am so glad I could do this. Next goal is 45 days which will be in 2 weeks