@imastegosaurus at one point I felt like deleting my account due to the embarrassment of failure. But the community is very encouraging and understanding. I still want to stop this habit for good.
Yes I agree, I should read more, due to my fapping habits I never had any motivation or discipline to complete any book. I always wanted to read 'Think and grow rich' but I have been putting it off, I'll also look up the guy. Thanks again.
Thanks Dojokyoto, It's just that I am at a point in life where I don't know what's right or wrong for me and which direction I should head towards. I mean, I have been wrong about so many things before, what if a bad decision today paves way for more suffering tomorrow.