Mentality is vital in anything you do, trying to force the issue or put pressure on yourself might show you some improvement, but your missing a whole lot more by not looking at mentality.
Id say take responsibility, realise abstinence is only part of this, panicking never solved anything. A mature attitude may help you to look at this clearer.
if anything my personal thoughts from my own experience is that porn fuelled my desire to carryout certain sexual behaviours, and some very similar to yours.
I feel that me actually bringing the 'porn fantasy' behaviours into my reality was actually very troublesome indeed and when I look back...
What does your heart tell you?
In nofap the general idea seems to be that if you no longer PMO you will get relief from a lot of negative symptoms because the brain will begin to rewire, sexually.
I believe a lot more needs to be looked at than just stopping porn masturbation, but thats getting...
My personal experience of anti depressants is not a good one if I'm honest, but I wouldn't advise anyone to take or not, that is up to a Dr/psychiatrist in my opinion.
I wonder if cavemen sat in their cave all through the night masturbating over cave paintings and fantasizing about bondage scenarios?
It pretty obvious sex fuelled the porn industry and now the porn industry fuels sex..
Porn replaced the sex education videos.
Its all pretty convenient, and a...
I've changed my approach to many things, for instances exercise.. I would be constantly timing myself whilst running and would end up not really enjoying my exercise unless I beat my times or ran further..
Now I don't focus on that anywhere near as much, I just go and do my run and enjoy the...
Are you worried for health reasons?
It sounds like obsession to me, I personally have tried to seize control of every aspect of my life and recovery at different times... my mind will just go around trying to control this and that, or this person or that person thinking that makes or will make...
Everybody has different ideas and different approaches, I've decided to take one day at a time, regardless of perceived success. Each sober day for me is a blessing.