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- Gender:
- Male
- Birthday:
- Jan 22, 1986 (Age: 38)
- Location:
- Berlin
- Occupation:
- Teacher
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About
I'm a guy starting my 30's, in a same-sex marriage, and ready to start a new life.
I've been struggling with my sexuality since I was a kid. I started consuming porn when I was very, very young as the early to mid 90's gave way to a plethora of porn options available to anyone with a dial-up connection.
Aside from being enticingly 'forbidden,' porn was, during my younger years, the only way for me to learn about my sexuality-- about being gay and being with other guys. Even before I had my first kiss I had already seen too many porn images.
When I finally reached adulthood, I was free to enjoy a world of sexual encounters. I always wanted more and more sex, just like I'd seen it in porn. Of course I was never satisfied and always felt guilty.
I never thought I would be the cheating kind, but when I was 21, I cheated on my boyfriend for the first time and this caused us to break up. I tortured myself for a long time for this and found myself unable to stop seeking sexual encounters. It was a cycle of sexual act, then guilt/depression, then another sexual act.
Fast forward to my marriage-- something I never thought possible. I was actually able to find someone who'd love me, but I fucked it up. I simply could not stop. Incredibly, my husband forgave me. I have, however, hurt him so much and caused way too much pain. I am ready to change and I'm glad there's a community that can help me do that.Interact
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