Trying to pick up pieces of myself... In a weird limbo, the world seems hard to believe. In other words, everything as usual. What about thou?
@Freiherr von Münchhausen It feels like I'm going back to the tracks after a month of Void. I don't know why I choosed to suffer, maybe because pain is usefull for evolution. Btw I'm preparing myself for a long trip in bike so I think the situation will get better.
How long has this been happening? Is there a pattern to this kind of thinking that you have detected?
It's been going on for years, really. The distance from the "real" world varies but it remains unreachable pretty much all the time. There is no pattern, it's just that the volume is set to very low.
I understand and empathize completely man. For me, after almost dying, the world seems like a bad dream, or like somebody's cosmic dollhouse.
Thanks for the follow man! Read some parts of your journal and empathized and even found lots of things that mirrored my own situation and how I feel about myself. I am back due to having a breakdown last week where I went without sleep for 3 days.
I definitely do not recommend. Sleep is everything, and its amazing how much we take it for granted. You start seeing things the third day and you feel like you're gunna die
Hahaha it sounds tempting and I'd agree if the hallucinations didn't come with a sense of dread, a feeling of hopelessness, and despair all tied and curled up in the pit of your stomach like a fist pulling you down by your organs.
Therefore we will not fear, though the earth shakes, and the mountains slip into the heart of the sea.
