SirErnest

Read 'The Obstacle is the Way'. Badly written/edited, but a fundamental truth. Read 'The Obstacle is the Way'

A hungover edge Sunday. Searched for something to learn, and it is that the resultant panic etc is for days but comes in 30 min bursts. Ok

Being alpha/rich etc is ok, but the small steps matter maybe more than anything. I just cleaned a small part of my house. Feels good. Start.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gambling_Commission has existed for 13 years in the UK. But sex/porn/masturbation addictions don't exist?!

Have stopped reading the bad news with my morning coffee. Now it's motivational books.

How is your journey going on?

If you slip a little on a hill, or even roll back to the base, the hill is still there to be climbed. Resume, and avoid the slippery parts.

Today I realised that I talk to/rant at people in my head. I will list who they are, but the response now is 'It's not real, and that's ok'.

https://www.bbc.co.uk/sport/54533248 No-one used to talk about gambling addiction. Or gaming addiction.

Looking up 'urge surfing'. Sounds good, and similar to meditation maybe. The urge as an opportunity...

Knowing how to get back (and doing the work) after falling is fine, but it takes a lot of effort. No point shooting yourself in the foot.

Oops I slipped. Straight back to building.

Some great success stories atm. The idea of addiction masking deeper problems sounds about right. Patient work and time required..

It's normal to really feel/believe in where you are right now. Don't take it too seriously. Do the work, feel the pain. Move forward!

The unexpected focus and laughter are things to remember. Maybe there is something to this thing.

Lengthy (difficult) job application (after work) for a job I don't want, but accepting doing better by stages. Rome wasn't built in a day.

Got through a little panic attack by hitting the aerobic exercise. Well worth it.

Guard up, no excuses, never ever let your guard down for a puny pleasure!!!

Generally feel pretty awful after work. So after a nap, it's now time to exercise and meditate. No effort...no progress.

Remember what NoFap is for. It's not for spouting your particular ideology. Channel that anger into something helpful.