Day 27 without masturbating. I absolutely must not edge today. I need to quit all edging or I will surely slip with masturbation soon. Day 27. 231 days left to finish out 2025 strong!
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Day 26 without masturbation. Day 1 without edging. Yesterday was a mess, unbelievable urges! Somehow I only edged. Very enlightening, at least to see when the urges didn’t occur.
Day 25 without masturbation. I feel ashamed about my edging slip last night. I can see clearly just how powerless I am over urges. It’s unnerving but good that I see it … and that I didn’t give in.
Day zero without edging. Dang! It creeps up so fast. I just started and couldn’t stop. Was on day 5. But at least I didn’t take it all the way to orgasm. Still day 24 without masturbation.
Day 24 without masturbation. I have a lot to be grateful for today. Happy Mothers Day to all you mothers!
Day 23 without masturbation. I really need help. This isn’t easy. Optimistic about a new AP!
Day 22 without masturbation. Struggling. Really struggling…
Day 21 without masturbation. Beat my last streak. Next milestone is 31 days. Goal is 365. Day 2 without edging. Day 21 without porn.
Day 20 without masturbation. Day 1 without edging.
Day 0 without edging. What’s wrong with me?? It only took a few seconds but that could have so easily crossed over the edge and I would have lost my streak without masturbation. Gotta stop the edging, not even for a few seconds! Especially when that might be all it takes
Day 19 without masturbation. Did pretty well yesterday. My last relapse was on day 20. Mini goals: make it to 20 … and then to 21.
Day 18 without masturbation. Yesterday was a better day. It’s also day 18 without porn and without any serious edging.
Day 17 without masturbation. I was a total mess yesterday, very irritable. Maybe a massive dopamine crash after the previous days intense arousal and urges? Grateful for a good night’s sleep and a new day
Day 16 without masturbation. Or edging? I didn’t overtly edge (kept my hands off) but there’s so many subtle things that could be on the edge of edging.
Yesterday was VERY tough. The urges hit hard. Very hard.
Very very cold shower. I always get my p*nis when I take a cold shower. Sometimes it’s just the lower half. More often it’s from the neck down. But just now I washed my hair which meant staying in for a long time. I’m freakin freezing!
Day 15 without masturbation or edging. Next milestone is going a full calendar month (May) without masturbation OR edging.
I could easily slip with M right now. I know I’m at risk. Device is on. I want so much to be free of masturbation! I must be willing to go to any length.
Cold shower. I don’t know how to handle the emotional letdown of not hearing from my AP, one for a day, one for a week+, one for a month+. Feel like I need someone to say “good work!” and “keep going!”
Day 14 without masturbation. Hooray! A fortnight! Just 244 days left to finish out this year clean
Day 13 without masturbation. Barely. Yesterday, and in the middle of the night, I had some very near slips.
No porn or edging either! That’s good. I think even a little porn or edging would have sent me right over the edge. -
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