+TenPercent

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Day 1 - relapsed again. FML. Tried edging, but I seem to have PE really bad & had an O before I was even hard. Dec 12, 2019 at 8:20 PM

+TenPercent was last seen:: Dec 13, 2019 at 9:26 AM

1. Coffee Candy
  Whoohoo! %10+ you're doing awesome, look @ you on 1 week already! You're tough stuff.
  
  May 7, 2019
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  2. +TenPercent
    Thank you! Right now I'm wondering how the heck I made it to 125 days. But also seeing that this is life or death. Sounds a bit extreme, but PMO is not living, it's dying. I want to live!! Need to go to any lengths to get well.
    
    May 7, 2019
    
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  3. Coffee Candy
    Yah its hard as hell at first lol. As the days keep going by it should become a little easier.
    Nice mindset. You'll make it back to the top again soon enough!
    
    May 7, 2019
    
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2. +TenPercent
  Day 7 - begrudgingly "grateful" this morning, now truly grateful as I appreciate that I have made it full circle to Monday afternoon
  
  May 6, 2019
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3. +TenPercent
  Day 6 - 119 more days to get myself back to 125! Ugh. And so tempted to M. So aroused by the women I see. Have to do this one day at a time.
  
  May 5, 2019
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  2. Coffee Candy
    hang in there!
    
    May 6, 2019
    
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4. +TenPercent
  Day 5 - my body / mind craves sexual satiety. Had an O without emission in a (dry) dream, then an emission without an O. Staying strong.
  
  May 4, 2019
5. +TenPercent
  Day 4 - really in the danger zone now. Grateful for every reminder that *orgasms are the problem* and that love, all love, is the solution.
  
  May 3, 2019
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  2. SirErnest
    Keep busy, or rest when you need to. I know the voice that is trying to get to you.
    
    May 3, 2019
    
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6. +TenPercent
  Day 3 - yesterday was better. 10+ hour work day. Highly responsive to sexual stimulus and very tempted to M. Chaser effect, perhaps.
  
  May 2, 2019
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  2. +TenPercent
    Ugh. Feel like my body might O with or without my help. Not sure what to do. Praying to get through this day!
    
    May 2, 2019
7. +TenPercent
  Day 2 - had a good day. But, emotionally up and down. Aware how being post-seminal crisis is throwing me off kilter.
  
  May 1, 2019
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8. +TenPercent
  Day 1 - Wary of how my release can set me up for isolation and another relapse. Focusing on healing, socialisation and love to get through.
  
  Apr 30, 2019
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9. +TenPercent
  Day 0. Ugh. 125 days without a release and then . . . and now confusion sets in. Not sure I would call it an orgasm, but now what?
  
  Apr 29, 2019
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  2. Coffee Candy
    lets get up together shall we. congratulations on your day 1(won)
    
    Apr 30, 2019
    
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10. +TenPercent
  Day 125 - more optimistic and easy-going today :) But, I also touched a little last night. Struggling with unexpected surges of arousal.
  
  Apr 29, 2019
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11. +TenPercent
  Day 124 - feeling more grounded today. Open-minded and more willing to connect with people. :)
  
  Apr 28, 2019
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12. +TenPercent
  Day 123 - not as easy as 1,2,3. Coming up on my all time record (129 days) and really struggling with arousal and urges right now . . .
  
  Apr 27, 2019
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  2. MuscularSherlockHolmes
    Hold on... Don't let the demons trick you!
    
    Apr 27, 2019
    
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13. +TenPercent
  Day 122 - 1/3 of a year!! In a funk. Was on the go 14 1/2 hours yesterday. Had dark chocolate and decaf coffee for dinner.
  
  Apr 26, 2019
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  3. SweetTransformation
    I guess the desire for sexual activity is something that is deeply ingrained in most humans which is why the desire is so strong. I understand that feeling because sometimes it's stronger than ever especially when you've gone so long without it.
    
    Apr 27, 2019
    
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  4. SweetTransformation
    However, it just shows you have keep your guard up whether or not you feel an urge. Sometimes there's a build up to it. Maybe there was a picture you saw...But you can do this you've come a long way!
    
    Apr 27, 2019
    
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  5. +TenPercent
    Thank you @SweetTransformation for the understanding and support. Yes, sometimes it feels like I have 4 months of pent up sexual energy that's going to find a release whether I like it or not!
    I need to channel that into something else . . .
    
    Apr 27, 2019
    
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14. +TenPercent
  "To cultivate self control in respect to the seminal crisis, but neglect it in other sexual indulgences . . .
  
  Apr 25, 2019
  2. +TenPercent
    is evidently Male Continence in a spurious and dangerous form." - John Humphrey Noyes (1872) Wow! This describes my challenge so well! How easily I can stumble in just this way, fooling myself with irrational ideas that as long as I don't orgasm, then porn, fantasy, edging, and any other arousal-generating behaviours are fair game. What a slippery slope that is! And what a terrible way to sell myself short.
    
    Apr 25, 2019
    
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15. +TenPercent
  Day 120 - today didn't go as expected, but somehow I was able to just "roll with it" pretty well! :)
  
  Apr 24, 2019
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  2. Coffee Candy
    Nice attitude!!
    
    Apr 24, 2019
    
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16. +TenPercent
  Day 119 - surprisingly content and peaceful today, feels so good! :) But also struggling w/ arousal like I haven't experienced in many days.
  
  Apr 23, 2019
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  2. Coffee Candy
    Keep going!! :+) your attitudes on trackk
    
    Apr 23, 2019
    
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17. +TenPercent
  Day 118 - and day 2 off of chocolate and decaf. Trying to be conscious of how I eat mindlessly to change the way I feel . .and I feel awful!
  
  Apr 22, 2019
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  3. +TenPercent
    I wish I knew! As an addict, I want to feel good all the time. Trying to change that. I try to do all the right things - eat well, get lots of sleep, (try to) reduce stress, yoga, meditation . . . and it's incredibly frustrating on days when I feel run down and broken.
    
    I just ate a few pieces of chocolate and felt energy and optimism again . . . so I'm sure that says something.
    
    Apr 22, 2019
    
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  4. Coffee Candy
    I don't know what to say :/
    Chocolate can make a person happy..
    but I get what you're saying, you don't want to feel dependent on that. Maybe you could have days for when you can have some chocolate and use it as a reward system lol..
    
    Apr 22, 2019
    
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  5. +TenPercent
    I haven't been able to quit porn or caffeine perfectly, but with years of effort, both have been drastically reduced! :)
    This is my first attempt at getting chocolate under control . . . so yes, having it as a special treat might be an option and only having 6 squares today might count as step in the right direction! :D
    
    Apr 22, 2019
    
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18. +TenPercent
  Day 117 - Easter. Worked more so that others could have the day off. Exhausted. Heavy rain and lots of traffic. Today sucked.
  
  Apr 21, 2019
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  2. Coffee Candy
    that was sweet of you. i hope you're having a better day today
    
    Apr 22, 2019
    
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19. +TenPercent
  Day 116 - Today's plan: 3 hour hike. Felt down and too tired to go :( Then, flash storm. Good thing I never went! Short hike this evening.
  
  Apr 20, 2019
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20. Coffee Candy
  Good job on 115 days meeting your goals! Stay fighting. I hope you have a good weekend, +10% :+)
  
  Apr 19, 2019
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Struggling with PE and SPH & Cuck Fantasies, but it all gets better (not worse!) if I can stay away from PMO.
Sixteen releases in 2019: 4/29, 9/10, 10/8, 10/8, 10/13, 10/16, 11/2, 11/6, 11/8, 11/13, 11/30, 12/2, 12/8, 12/8, 12/11, 12/12. Had 43 in 2018 vs 82 in 2017.
Haven't really jerked off since 12/23/2017. Met a girl in August. Wet dreams & involuntary releases in bold, partial releases underlined
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