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Just deleted (permanently) 10 images off my phone and partially 16 more. Out of about 50. It's stupid. They're digital. I can fill my phone with new images in an hour.
The hard part is that I had to look at them to delete them and got very aroused. The shameful part is that the worst (hottest) ones I couldn't delete. Not yet.
Still, that's 10 less.

Permanently deleted 10 more.
Ugh. This isn't easy. My addict mind wanted to look at more, which is partly why I looked at more to delete.
Had to stop. Breathe really heavy, pray, listen to meditation music and read Cupid's Poisoned Arrow.
Focus on healing.
Looking at porn to delete it could easily turn into a slip!

Good job!! :)

hang in there!

Keep busy, or rest when you need to. I know the voice that is trying to get to you.

Ugh. Feel like my body might O with or without my help. Not sure what to do. Praying to get through this day!

lets get up together shall we. congratulations on your day 1(won)

Hold on... Don't let the demons trick you!

I guess the desire for sexual activity is something that is deeply ingrained in most humans which is why the desire is so strong. I understand that feeling because sometimes it's stronger than ever especially when you've gone so long without it.

However, it just shows you have keep your guard up whether or not you feel an urge. Sometimes there's a build up to it. Maybe there was a picture you saw...But you can do this you've come a long way!

Thank you @SweetTransformation for the understanding and support. Yes, sometimes it feels like I have 4 months of pent up sexual energy that's going to find a release whether I like it or not!
I need to channel that into something else . . .

is evidently Male Continence in a spurious and dangerous form." - John Humphrey Noyes (1872) Wow! This describes my challenge so well! How easily I can stumble in just this way, fooling myself with irrational ideas that as long as I don't orgasm, then porn, fantasy, edging, and any other arousal-generating behaviours are fair game. What a slippery slope that is! And what a terrible way to sell myself short.

Nice attitude!!

Keep going!! :+) your attitudes on trackk

I wish I knew! As an addict, I want to feel good all the time. Trying to change that. I try to do all the right things - eat well, get lots of sleep, (try to) reduce stress, yoga, meditation . . . and it's incredibly frustrating on days when I feel run down and broken.

I just ate a few pieces of chocolate and felt energy and optimism again . . . so I'm sure that says something.

I don't know what to say :/
Chocolate can make a person happy..
but I get what you're saying, you don't want to feel dependent on that. Maybe you could have days for when you can have some chocolate and use it as a reward system lol..

I haven't been able to quit porn or caffeine perfectly, but with years of effort, both have been drastically reduced! :)
This is my first attempt at getting chocolate under control . . . so yes, having it as a special treat might be an option and only having 6 squares today might count as step in the right direction! :D

that was sweet of you. i hope you're having a better day today