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New Fapstronaut, Male
- thegreatreboot_PM was last seen:
- Feb 2, 2022
Hello all. 34 years old, full time student pursuing a career pivot.
I have been suspicious that porn has been eroding my experience with real life sexual encounters for about 4 years now. I first became aware that I may have a problem when I began dating a woman exclusively, and she asked if I watched porn, and since I said yes, if was addicted to porn (as a general getting-to-know-each-other question). I recall a spike in anxiety at the question, and it was the first time that I considered that I might actually be addicted.
The pandemic accelerated what was a creeping problem into a real world issue. I began to see PIED, and while I can still function in a way that is satisfying to my partners, it is noticeably difficult for my initial erection and sometimes impossible to reach orgasm.
I found myself half-assing my work and studies to view porn for periods of 30 min to as long as an hour and a half. I also recognized the signs of ever increasing extreme content needed to achieve orgasm.
Finally, I took an honest inward look and came to terms with the fact that porn had not only affected my sex life but also destroyed my ability to create emotional connection. This was the final straw - I would like to have a family and successful healthy emotional relationship. For me, an addict personality type, the only solution is no porn at all.
I put off actually making changes for the last 6 months or so, out of fear of the difficulty of the task at hand. Here I am, ready to make a significant change and embrace the challenge.